Letter 1
It's late at night, facing this high wall and iron net, I can't sleep, and my thoughts are like ash. A few years of college life seems just around the corner, and I am in such a place at the moment. On the surface, I am calm, but in this case, who can achieve inner peace?
Two months ago, I was a college student in a key university. A graduate who is about to step into the society, my family and the country have high hopes for me. I am not eager to contribute to the modernization of the motherland and realize my life value.
My alma mater is the most famous and powerful university in Yunnan Province, and its employment prospects are very promising. I asked my brothers and sisters (fellow villagers) and teachers clearly, so I didn't feel the employment pressure of college students in many newspapers.
I am really painful to write here. It can be said that this "favored son of heaven" status was given by the state, and it can also be said that I worked hard 12 years.
But how can I easily ruin all this? The four victims, like me, have parents, brothers and sisters at home. They have been studying hard in the cold window for many years like me, and they are full of expectations for the future like me.
How did I destroy them so easily in the first place? Ren Yun: Everything happens for a reason. He said: There are always internal and external causes in the development of things, and the internal cause is dominant, so I am trying to think hard every day, trying to find a reason and a reasonable explanation from myself, but at the moment I am also very confused, so I can only say that it was an accident!
I decided to go this way because of a quarrel at cards. Now I look at it as a bystander, how ridiculous and ignorant it is! How sad and cruel it is! Is life so fragile? Is there nothing worth missing in this world?
Don't! That's what I think now, and I used to! But in those days, there was only distress and hatred in my heart, and many consequences were unimaginable. Many things happened before I had time to think about it. Afterwards, I don't know how big the impact is, and I don't know how much damage it has caused to my loved ones.
I realized that it's not just my relatives and friends who are sad. I regret it, but what is done is irrevocable. I want to say sorry to the whole society and to the relatives and friends of four students, but will you accept it? Would you accept such a demon?
I study in a six-year primary school in the countryside. One teacher was very strict and brought a small piece of wood to punish his students. Among many students, I am the most naughty, but I am probably in the fourth grade. The teacher began to love me very much, although I was still so naughty, because he found me smart.
So my interest in learning began at that time, thanks to this strict and responsible teacher. Thank you very much, teacher. You are my first teacher.
Alas, memories of the past are always so sweet.
My head teacher in high school is a kind, caring and responsible person. I can't find any gorgeous words to describe him anymore-it's difficult to express my inner feelings clearly and comprehensively, and I believe everyone has had such an experience.
Our head teacher almost comes to our dormitory at six o'clock every morning to urge us to get up and do morning exercises, because several people are unconscious and often bedridden. One semester, I told the class teacher that I didn't want to do morning exercises. I wanted to sleep a little longer to have enough energy to study. The teacher agreed at once. Of all the students, I am the only one who has this privilege.
This teacher's lectures are very detailed. I always feel that it takes too much time in private, and I don't think it is necessary to repeat them one by one. But I finally understand that the teacher is not only facing me, but the whole class.
As the saying goes, each finger has its own length, each person's qualifications are different and the level is uneven. He is responsible for the whole class! Some people say that small things are the most touching. There are so many such little things that I can't describe them, except that they have touched me a lot.
There are still many people who make me feel warm and guilty, but I don't want to write them all down, so as not to be irresponsible like a running account.
This essay, named Confession, not only wants to write out my feelings and thoughts to explain to all the people who have been hurt, but also wants to warn the world not to commit crimes and think twice about everything. When you want to commit a crime, you should understand that the biggest victim is actually your closest relative and favorite person!
In fact, I want to say sorry to my relatives most. My parents have loved me since I was a child, and they have high hopes for me since I was a child, hoping that I will get ahead and win glory for my hometown. They endured hardships for me for decades, but when I was about to succeed, I committed an unforgivable crime. What a heavy blow this is to them. Poor bear the wind, I'm sorry ...
Ma Jiajue
April 6(th), 2004
Shinji
Fourteen uncles and aunts:
Hello, I want to write this letter on March 10. But I haven't had a chance yet. Today is March 16. I wrote it in Sanya Detention Center, Hainan Province. This kind of thing must have had a bad influence on the whole family, but I can't say anything sorry anymore.
After receiving this letter, I hope you will immediately convey my wishes to my parents-to persuade them to leave me alone. I really don't want to see them again. Because I am not who I used to be, I know that in my parents' hearts, no matter how tall or old I am, I will always be the "twelve" when I was a child.
But I have really changed a lot. It is hopeless for a person to go bad in thought. I really hope my parents will leave me alone. As for bodies, funerals and the like, the government can handle them. In short, the simpler the better. Never do anything to the ashes. I'm never superstitious.
Fourteen uncles and fourteen aunts, I really have a lot to tell you. I have always been grateful for your help to my family, and I have never forgotten it.
It's just that I haven't been able to say my sweet words and seldom write to you. I can recall a lot when I talk about your help to my family. There are many big things, but I can't count the small ones.
You know, life seems ordinary, but in fact, many small things can happen in life. For example, in daily life, your family and my family are closely linked. Some small favors are easy to forget afterwards, but I know that many things seem trivial, but without the help of your family, it will be difficult or even impossible for our family. I don't want to help so much, but I won't forget, and neither will my brother.
Although it is proper for brothers to help each other in the same big family, it is not easy to do so. Just look at other families in our village.
I think of a letter from my tenth brother when I was a freshman, which was written to encourage me and appease me. In the letter, he called me "brother", and I really burst into tears. At that moment, I remembered many past events. Thinking of going to the fruit seedling garden near Lu Cun with Brother Ten to find fruit seedlings, I found a peach seedling.
When I got home, my father wouldn't let me plant trees at home. Brother Ten said, "Give it to me", but I broke the fruit seedlings. I remember it was on the roof of my house. At that time, the "bad six" family next door had not got up yet, and we were all young. Brother Shi may not remember it for a long time, but once I had a fight with Brother Shi, and he had a nosebleed. I pushed him to a pile of sand in front of Uncle Shi's house.
I still remember that I went to Pinggu's home in Zhaocun with ten brothers, thirteen children and so on. Pinggu loves us very much. Let's each choose a toy to come back. Brother Shi and I robbed a toy car, which was finally mine. These things happened when I was a child, because I have a cheerful personality and I don't remember them for a long time.
Later, Brother Ten went to school with Uncle Zhong Naiyi, and could not be together for a long time. When Brother Ten grew up, he had several companions near Gao Bin, but he still cared about me.
Once, Brother Ten gave me 80% of his new clothes, and I refused his sincerity. Once, Brother Ten invited me to play darts in his room. I went, but I was restrained. In fact, many times I am very restrained with Brother Ten, and I can't let myself go.
In retrospect, I really felt the deep friendship of Brother Ten. I am very close to the age of the tenth brother. He has always wanted to be good brothers and friends with me, but I think tenth brother has always been helpless.
You can only be helpless about some things and have no other ideas. I think the reason why Brother Ten and I can't be sincere bosom friends is because I feel sorry for myself.
It was not until he went to college that a small rural poor man saw the world and became cheerful. Only then did I deeply blame myself. I have read the phrase "people are poor and ambitious" since I was a child, but I have never introduced it into my belief.
Bamei is very sensible and has a good feeling for my family. They often come to play. I didn't dislike anything (I said this as a stranger). I remember that Seventh Sister used to sleep at Eighth Sister's house, not to mention my family.
Speaking of drying grain, it is often put in Bamei's room. It must be uncomfortable for people to sleep in it. But BaMei didn't say anything. If it rains while drying grain, Bamei, 14 aunts, 10 brothers will come in a hurry. After sweeping, loading and opening a pocket, the skin will be very uncomfortable. Even I am often lazy, but Bamei will come to help even if it rains.
Of course, these things are not big or small, but there is always a warmth when I think of them. After I went to college, Bamei wrote me several letters, but I didn't reply well. I really feel sorry for her. I wonder what she will think.
When I think of the years when Seven Sisters lived at home, I feel I must thank Eight Sisters, who relieved Seven Sisters of many loneliness. I really appreciate her.
Jiu Ge is also very kind to my family, and will help me enthusiastically if anything happens. When I think of 2000, Jiuge accompanied me to Nanning, which was really good for me. I didn't know anything at that time, thank you for asking.
Once on holiday, I came back to know that Jiu Ge was learning to repair motorcycles. I'm really happy for him. Because I fantasize that doing this job will make a lot of money. What else can Jiu Ge not learn?
Extended data:
At the beginning of February, 2004, students majoring in biotechnology in the School of Life Sciences of Yunnan University had a verbal conflict with their classmates Tang Moumou, Shao Mou, Yang Moumou and Gong Mou during playing cards, and they had the idea of killing four people.
13 On the evening of February 2nd, in the dormitory, I beat my classmate Tang Moumou with a stonemason's hammer prepared in advance, causing his death. He tied Tang's head with a plastic bag and hid it in the closet, and handled the scene carefully.
On the night of February 65438, 2004, Shao was killed by the same means. On February 15, he killed his classmates Yang Moumou and Gong Mou again at noon and evening respectively. After committing the crime, Ma Jiajue fled from Kunming to Guangzhou by train with cash and a fake ID card made before committing the crime.
On February 23, the Public Security Bureau of Kunming City, Yunnan Province immediately launched an investigation after receiving a report from Yunnan college students. Immediately, the Yunnan Provincial Public Security Bureau issued an A-level wanted order offering a reward for the arrest of the suspect Ma Jiajue.
On March 1 day, the Ministry of Public Security issued an A-level wanted order for Ma Jiajue, a fugitive criminal suspect, and publicly wanted him nationwide with a high reward. On the evening of March 15, Ma Jiajue was arrested and brought to justice by the public security organs in Hexi District, Sanya City, Hainan Province.
References:
Baidu Encyclopedia-Ma Jiajue