The mood eased slightly, and Xiaoyu poured out the past scenes like beans. ...
Xiaoyu was a beautiful and capable girl at that time. She has excellent academic performance since childhood, outstanding performance after work, beautiful and tall, so many people introduced her. Xiaoyu met many people, but finally she chose her current husband, which puzzled many people and made them experience some experiences that ordinary people could not understand.
My husband is ugly, short, mature at best, old at worst, pockmarked and pockmarked on his face like traces left by years, which makes people feel that this boy seems to have experienced a lot and is very shrewd. But helpless love is amazing, but Xiaoyu loves him deeply. She feels that her husband is mature and has a story, which makes Xiaoyu, who has been living in a simple world and has a smooth journey, admire him. At that time, she only had a very simple idea. She has been simple since she was a child. She only knows how to study and step into society. She hopes to meet a mature husband and take her to see the world.
Friends are curious about her choice but helpless, and parents are different. Resolutely opposed, and even threatened to sever relations. Xiaoyu compromised under the strong attack of her parents, because she was a good girl since she was a child and never let her parents worry. Later, Xiaoyu also recalled that her husband's performance in front of his parents was not enthusiastic or even a show, but Xiaoyu did not realize this at that time.
After a long time, they still secretly contacted, because the light rain still couldn't let him go. Moreover, when Xiaoyu was introduced to a blind date by others, she was also secretly provoked by her husband. Xiaoyu didn't know until she learned it.
The time together is good, but there are still so many bad things. Compared with deep love, innocent and simple light rain is almost imperceptible. Later, I thought about it and realized that there were so many discordant episodes. Are they all in love? Recalling the feeling after a light rain made her feel uncomfortable. For example, on a cold winter night, they were going to her husband's house, but there were some contradictions on the way. In the deserted street, her husband left on a motorcycle, perhaps because of Xiaoyu's fault, but Xiaoyu was still uncomfortable alone in the street. I don't know why, it's too late, there's no figure on the street, and it's far from work. Xiaoyu had to bite the bullet and rush to her husband's family. He was walking with trepidation when he was suddenly slapped by a punk passing by by by bike. Xiaoyu was frightened. After riding, Teddy boy turned to look at Xiaoyu and didn't respond, ready to turn back. At this time, Xiaoyu was surprised and took action quickly. She saw a shop nearby and ran away quickly. The gangster saw it and gave up.
I called my husband in the shop and he came to pick her up, and then I forgot the details. In short, it was a very sad thing in retrospect, but it didn't hurt Xiaoyu at that time. You can imagine what a simple and naive Mao Mao rain it was. After all, there are too few men in contact.
After marriage, my husband is more responsible and spoiled since childhood, but after marriage, he still tries to share housework with Xiaoyu. Xiaoyu was also happy for a while. During that time, Xiaoyu went to work and her husband cooked and cleaned up at home. When she doesn't want to cook, her husband takes her out to eat, and their wages are always tight. However, her husband never picked up Xiaoyu, especially when she was pregnant. Xiao Yu was impressed by going to work with a big belly and riding home with an umbrella in one hand when it rained. I'm afraid to think about it now. If she accidentally slipped, the consequences would be unimaginable, but there was nothing she could do at that time.
After getting married, I can gradually feel the gap between their consumption view and economic view. Xiaoyu is thrifty, but her husband is different. He spends a lot of money, but because jiehunjingji is short of money now, her husband is very restrained.
The real change was when her husband transferred the unit to discuss with Xiaoyu. Xiaoyu disagreed. She enjoys seeing her husband at home every day. The family is warm and doesn't expect much from others. Later, I learned that her needs were because her parents were very busy when she was a child. When she came back from school, she was most afraid of seeing the big lock hanging on the unpopular door. Every time she got home, she prayed for someone at home and was disappointed every time. So after marriage, Xiaoyu was very practical and went to see her husband as soon as she got home.
Husband persuaded Xiaoyu that he had decided to go to a new unit. He had been a child for more than two weeks, and he wanted to do something. Although Xiaoyu is reluctant in his heart, he will no longer stop it.
My husband had a good relationship with the leader when he entered the new unit, and soon gained the trust of the leader and held an important position, and it was out of control from then on. First of all, my husband socializes a lot. He always drinks too much and comes back late. Xiaoyu takes care of the children alone, and she is very tired at work. When her husband came home, Xiaoyu complained a few words. Her husband was angry and sometimes slammed the door when he was angry. Later, Xiaoyu also knew that in fact, her husband was very tired when he was out socializing. When he got home, he also wanted Xiaoyu to take care of him and understand him, but Xiaoyu was more tired. He was at a loss for such a change and didn't recognize it, so the two men kept fighting each other and couldn't communicate.
Later, my husband did more and more work, more and more people knew him, more and more people sought his help, and more and more people fawned on the elderly. My husband is busier and enjoys it more and more. Xiaoyu doesn't like this. Compared with being in an important position and being an official, Xiaoyu still likes to be grounded and loves her and her husband who lives an ordinary life. But since then, she has never found that feeling in front of her husband, maybe not before. Her husband is not a mediocre person at all, but he has never had a chance to sprout when he first got married.
Later, my husband had his own career, and his concern for Xiaoyu and his children was indispensable. Xiaoyu also wants her husband to be good and even help him financially. But that's what happens in life. Xiaoyu fully supports her husband, but he has no time and energy to pay attention to Xiaoyu and the children. He even told Xiaoyu that career is more important than family. Xiaoyu's heart was cold at that time. She felt that her husband was getting farther and farther away from her. It's not that he has no time and energy to spend with his family, but that he doesn't care.
Later, because the light rain complained a lot, my husband began to escape and met a girl at work. They are very close, and the boredom at home will tell the girl. The girl's father held an important position in the unit at that time, and Xiaoyu's husband was also very popular with his parents. The girl already has children, but her husband doesn't live up to expectations. Xiaoyu's husband has become the girl's talk object. At that time, it was the time when Xiaoyu and her husband had serious contradictions. Xiaoyu knew that her husband and girl were very close during that time. When I can't meet you every day, I talk on the phone for a long time and keep texting, such as where to play, where to wait for you, why not say sweet words and so on. , once captured by Xiao Yuqing. Xiaoyu fought back her anger, but she didn't make trouble because she had to go to work and take care of her children. She has no energy, and she is not like that. Besides, she had a naive idea at that time, that is, she hoped her husband would contact a woman and know how good Xiaoyu was, because Xiaoyu loved her husband so much and really gave everything for him.
After a while, my husband finally put his heart on the family. Although Xiaoyu felt very insecure at first, and felt that her husband really lost contact with the girl, he slowly relaxed, but the pain that that experience brought to Xiaoyu could not be calmed down for a long time, even now.
Later, Xiaoyu's husband met a divorced woman for business. Her husband admires her business acumen and experience. She has always told Xiaoyu that she is very capable, and her husband often asks her for advice on business matters. She especially likes talking to her husband and asking him to help her rent a house near a small company. During that time, Xiaoyu's husband was often with this woman, and there were some friends with him. Sometimes they talk late, and sometimes they play and eat with friends. Eating in Xiaoyu's company is more common, even more than Xiaoyu's. Xiaoyu once went to the company and saw her cooking in the kitchen. Because the chef is away, Xiaoyu has never done this before. It feels like home in Xiaoyu's company. Xiaoyu felt very uncomfortable. She also communicated with her husband, but when she heard it, her husband was very angry and thought she was looking for trouble, so she always broke up in discord. Since then, Xiaoyu has never said anything. Later, the woman went to other places for business, and her husband kept in touch with her WeChat phone, and Xiaoyu's heart was relatively stable. Later, because she was angry with her husband, Xiaoyu complained to an old employee of her former company. The old employee said that her husband and the woman were in frequent contact at that time, but I believe they will not have a result. But when they got along, she understood everything and advised her husband to take good care of his family and spend more time with Xiaoyu and her children. Xiaoyu felt even worse after she said these words. She once said a word to her husband, but when he heard the fire, he flew into a rage and directly dropped the razor in his hand. Xiaoyu was too scared to speak again.
Now the light rain has cast a shadow over these, and my husband is now treating a female employee of a company better. This female employee is in charge of many things in the company now. Xiaoyu doesn't go to the company very much. She always feels that this female employee is particularly casual in front of her husband, such as joking and talking. There are still many things for her to make up her mind. Some are not like the relationship between leaders and employees. Even let her accompany her husband to the hospital twice, which made Xiaoyu very uncomfortable. Sometimes, there are always scenes of her husband and female employees in her mind, which makes Xiaoyu very painful.
Xiaoyu often comforts herself. There are only men and women in the world. Can't they communicate? But why does the relationship between husband and woman make her so uneasy and uncomfortable? Sometimes I feel that my husband is soft-hearted and good to others, but shouldn't there be a bottom line and boundary for being good to others? Moreover, it is true that to be good to outsiders, we must first be good to our families. Isn't it false that you are bad to your relatives and good to outsiders? But my husband doesn't think so. He said he often took part in accidental amusement, but he didn't want to. Xiaoyu thinks whether she thinks too much and is too narrow-minded, but she can only be better. Deep insecurity, insecurity and distrust erode her from time to time.
Sometimes she becomes irritable or tells her husband that she wants to leave this marriage, but he says she will never give up this marriage anyway. Sometimes I feel that this man is still very responsible, but it just makes Xiaoyu uncomfortable. He doesn't care about Xiao Yu's feelings and things, but he thinks that making a lot of money is for Xiao Yu and his children. He cares about his feelings and things.
Xiaoyu said that she once loved her husband so much, but now she dare not love him again. She is too afraid of injury and pain. She said that love must not be too deep, too deep will hurt too hard. Therefore, if she continues to live with her husband, she decides to change her views on love and marriage. If she loves him, she will love him less and suffer less. Love yourself more, only you can be responsible for yourself and learn to be responsible for yourself. Don't allow others to hurt themselves, and others can't hurt themselves. No longer demanding perfection, my husband enjoys himself, why not! When you blossom, why are you afraid of other people's messy things? I'm getting better and better, let others cry!
Woman, do you still believe in love?