Xia Lian swore that she would never get married.
Now, she wants to see him, but it's as hard as heaven.
She stood outside the church like a stone statue, wearing a veil and holding a champagne rose, eager to see it quickly, but reluctant to go in.
Seeing her like this, Feifei felt a little sorry: "Xia Lian, don't wait."
"Feifei ..." She turned around and looked at the girl beside her blankly like a child. "Do you think he will be caught in a traffic jam or the plane will be delayed?"
"No ... Feifei shook her head and couldn't bear to say it." Unless he ... "
Unless he didn't come at all! If Feifei didn't finish it, she even knew it in summer. She gathered her emotions and finally gave in to fate: "Let's go in."
Who can complain about loneliness? Foreword is always faint.
After all, she and he are just a young dream.
Now, I woke up. People are scattered.
She will be someone else's bride.
Over the guests, Xia Lian's eyes rested on the other side of the red carpet. The man she was waiting for didn't come after all. She finally gave up and whispered, "I do."
In short, a lifetime commitment.
And her favorite man, in a melee, finally exhausted his last strength.
He left with his love and blessing for her.
the second part
Revisit the old place, but things are different.
Even in summer, when I open the window, the biting cold wind blows on my face. She raised her chin, like an arrogant warrior, against the winter in Moscow.
Lin tied her waist from behind. He looked dignified and hesitated: "Even in summer ..."
She closed the window and looked back at him. He tried to suppress his inner panic for fear that she would see anything. After a pause, he sink a track: "I ... I have to go back to China first."
"Well ..." She didn't care, even a little lucky. "I can do it alone."
Lin was not at ease and repeatedly explained various matters. Even the phone number of the embassy is written in her address book.
Compared with his caution, Xia Lian is like a wild horse without the reins. As soon as he left, she went to the nearest store and bought two bottles of vodka.
She seldom drinks, but she has a soft spot for the taste of vodka.
That year, she was nineteen years old and went to Moscow for a holiday with Yulu. She is drooling over vodka. He poured a few drops from the cup and asked her to take a sip with her lips.
Vodka of 38 degrees will burn like a fire in your chest. Her cheeks were red, and she stood on tiptoe and kissed him gently on the lips.
He hugged her tightly and promised that he would accompany her to Bai Shou under the stars.
Now, it's only been five years, but he has broken his word and left her to others forever.
After a few drinks, even Xia's consciousness was in a trance. She turned out her mobile phone and skillfully pressed a series of numbers, but his mobile phone was always turned off!
Love to the end, only a reluctant heart is still struggling.
Even in summer, the lights are dazzling. She closed her eyes and tears ran down her eyes. She never knew that the world was so big. There is no news of him, but she is nowhere to be found.
"Even in summer ... even in summer!" In the dim light, she heard someone calling her, with a soft tone of spoil and helplessness. She suddenly opened her eyes and responded enthusiastically: "Fish way!"
Sunlight spilled into the room through the curtains, reflecting the cold of the room. Xia Lian leaned back in bed feebly, wishing she could sleep in her dream forever.
She stayed in her room for two days. On the third day, she took her suitcase to the airport.
The smog in Beijing has not yet dispersed. Even in summer, I looked around the hall and saw Feifei coming late.
"Where is Lin?" She was a little surprised. He was never a treacherous man, but on second thought, he came to his senses. Fish Road also said that she would accompany her to death, so didn't she let go of her hand?
"Why?" Feifei teased her with a smile. "You can't wait to say goodbye for three days."
Xia Lian is too weak to mess with her. She closed her eyes slightly and said for a long time, "Is he back?"
Feifei's heart is shaking. She seldom lies, let alone lies to her. Looking at her through the rearview mirror, she was helpless and distressed, and advised: "Xia Lian, forget him."
Xia Lian slowly opened his eyes, raised his mouth and sneered, "How did you forget?"
During this period, she told herself countless times to forget him, but how to do it? She has no answer. When one thing gradually becomes obsession, it makes people despair.
the third part
When I woke up, it was already night.
Xia Lian followed the smell to the kitchen. Lin Chenzi wore a pink apron and saw her coming. She gently advised, "Wash your hands quickly, it's time for dinner."
"Oh." She replied awkwardly, somewhat uncomfortable.
Six dishes and one soup is too grand for a family with only two people.
"How, to your liking?" He fidgeted, like a player waiting for affirmation, and his eyes were full of expectation.
"Not bad." She gave her thumbs up in praise, and he finally breathed a sigh of relief.
After dinner, go to wash dishes in summer. A luxurious young lady, doing housework for the first time, is inevitably confused.
When Lin heard the news, even Xia was staring at the broken plate on the ground. He took her hand, looked at it again and again, and eagerly asked, "Is your hand hurt?"
"No." She answered in a low voice, subconsciously took her hand off him and stood awkwardly.
His meticulous care made her feel guilty. Maybe she shouldn't drag him into her dark world.
"Do you regret it?" She finally asked out.
Lin Chenzi turned off the tap, turned around, stared at her straight, and asked slowly, "Why regret it?"
"You know, I still love him." He knows everything about her, including her love for Fish Road.
He met her on his way to Afghanistan a year ago. With a camera on his back, he can speak fluent French, just like Fish Road.
And her foreign language level is extremely poor. English is so poor that she can't communicate with others at all, so the only person she can talk to along the way is him.
He doesn't talk much, but he is an excellent listener.
She told the story of her and Fish Road for the first time.
It was the winter vacation of 20 1 1 year, and Xia Lian accompanied her cousin to give birth in the hospital. Bored, she took out a mathematical simulation and began to do the problem.
"Choose B" A gentle and deep voice sounded overhead.
Lian Xia looked up and looked at a pair of deep eyes. He smiled at her and she blushed. Seventeen-year-old heart, gently move.
The girl in Seeds of Love, like a newborn calf, pursues love without hesitation with a burning heart and persistence.
Later, the fish road was chased away, and I couldn't help teasing her: "Xia Lian, do you know shame?"
She lowered her eyes, grabbed the shoulder strap of her backpack with both hands and whispered, "But I am more afraid that you will be taken away by others."
She is more afraid of losing him than the girl's reserve.
"Silly girl," Fish Road gently blew her nose and spoke to her softly. "When the college entrance examination is over, let's talk about feelings, ok?"
Happiness comes so suddenly that even Xia can't wait to nod, for fear of breaking his word.
Time flies. In a blink of an eye, the college entrance examination will be over.
Fish Road stood in the crowd in a white T-shirt and ice cream in his hand. 1 m 83, he is born with a sense of superiority.
Far away, I saw him even in summer. She hurried through the crowd and held on to him like a koala.
"Stop that now and come down! Everyone is watching. " He was shy, but he put his arm around her waist carefully.
She fell in love with him at first sight, and he wanted to grow old with her.
part four
The elective course of Xia Lian University is Broadcasting and Hosting.
Her school is separated from the school in Fish Road by a wall. Unfortunately, he spent most of his time as an intern in the hospital. She is too lazy to disturb his work.
He is gentle and seldom loses his temper. The only drawback is that he is too persistent in his work and is a typical workaholic.
It was also at this time that Xia Lian learned that there was another profession in the world-Doctors Without Borders. It is the dream of fishway.
Xia Lian never told Fish Road. In fact, she also has dreams. She wants to grow old with him.
She loves passionately, but she also loves lowly.
In the second year after graduation, Yulu was named the best young doctor in obstetrics.
From intern to doctor, he is getting closer and closer to his dream step by step. On the day before he submitted his application for overseas rescue project, Xia Lian hesitated on the other end of the phone for a long time, but finally didn't ask him to stay.
Lin asked her, "Then why don't you keep him?"
She lowered her eyes and hid her emotions for a long time before saying, "I don't want to be a stumbling block to him." He is her favorite person, how can she bear to be a stumbling block to him and hinder him from pursuing his dream?
Everyone says Xia Lian is stupid, but in fact, she just doesn't want to embarrass the person she loves deeply.
First stop, Yulu went to Pakistan. Xia Lian measured the distance between him and her on the map, one centimeter, two centimeters ... No matter how she measured it, he and she were separated by Qianshan.
During the summer vacation, Xia Lian drove all the way to the west. She drove for two days, and finally her car had a flat tire in Ningxia. Standing on the highest hill, she looked out, and the mountains were rolling and endless. The person she cares about most is still out of reach.
Two days before the holiday ended, Yulu returned to China.
Xia Lian, wearing a long red dress and holding champagne roses, stood on tiptoe, eager to see them outside the airport.
The journey was very tiring. The moment I saw her, it was like a stranded fish being sent back to the ocean. The long-lost heartbeat reborn the fish road. He quickened his pace and couldn't wait to hold her in his arms.
He is black and thin. But the whole person is still like a shining star, which makes her moved and proud.
He held her tightly in his arms and his voice was hoarse: "Xia Lian, I love you."
Just like a drifting ship finally arrived at the harbor, Xia Lian buried his face in the arms of Fish Road, feeling his heartbeat and his body temperature. This long-lost happiness made her feel like a dream. She called his name over and over again: "Fish Road ..."
He looked at her tenderly and replied.
He really came back, right beside her, within reach. But she still misses him.
There are not many classes in the senior year, and most students are preparing for the internship. Xia Lian is completely out of her element. She is busy planning her own wedding. She is going to marry Yulu.
"Are you crazy? I want to get married before graduation. " Feifei has a face of panic. I have known her for 20 years, and her occasional madness will still surprise her.
"So what?" Even in summer.
In fact, she is selfish. Yulu lost her mother when she was young, and after her father remarried, she cut off contact with him. She wants to build a home for him with love, so that he can go home no matter how far he goes.
The fifth part
On the day of filming graduation photo, Xia Lian was wearing a wedding dress.
Feifei specially flew back to Beijing from Shanghai to witness her happiest moment. However, all her plans ended before they started.
Fish Road left and was sent to Afghanistan.
Xia Lian chased him to the airport and didn't even catch up with him to say goodbye.
Later, the photo of her running barefoot at the airport in a wedding dress and high heels was posted online. Even my father flew into a rage when he knew it, so he arranged a blind date for her with relatives and friends that night.
She panicked, bought a plane ticket overnight and flew to Afghanistan.
She inquired all the way, and then followed Lin to the war correspondent who was in Afghanistan at that time. Accompanied by him, she saw the fishway in the temporary ward. His white coat was covered with blood and he was holding a newborn baby in his arms.
"Fish Road." She called him softly, her trembling voice mixed with a hint of crying.
Tired to the extreme, he suspected that he was hearing voices. He handed the baby to the nurse next to him and then turned around. The familiar figure made his eyes red.
Xia Lian!' His voice trembled, and he tried to resist the urge to hug her. "Why are you here?" .
She threw herself into his arms and hugged his waist tightly. Before she could say what she had missed, she only heard gunshots. The fear of bone erosion wrapped her tightly like an invisible net, and she trembled all over. He soothed her emotions and said with great gentleness, "Don't be afraid, I'm here."
She hid in his arms in shock, and the environment of passing death at any time made her uneasy. She tugged at his skirt and her voice trembled, almost praying, "Fish Road, will you come home with me?"
He avoided her sight, endured great grief and said slowly, "Xia Lian, let's break up."
Like a cold bullet through her chest, a heartbreaking pain tore at her. She stared at him and asked dully, "Why?"
"Go home, you shouldn't stay here." He turned coldly and walked out, leaving her to sob.
"Stop!" Lin waited by and stopped the fishway. He asked him sharply, "She is crying, don't you see?"
"Get out of the way!" He growled in a low voice, and his face was so heavy that it could drip.
Lin is furious, because it is not worth summer to care about at all. He punched Fish Road in the face, and Fish Road's mood was ignited. He gripped the collar tightly. ...
"Stop it." Tears stained Xia Lian's elaborate makeup. Her mouth was open, but three simple words exhausted all her strength: "You go."
In the afternoon in Afghanistan, the sun was just right, but she was trembling all over, like falling into an ice cave.
Part VI
After returning home, Xia Lian was ill for a month.
Half asleep, she seems to have returned to Afghanistan. That afternoon, he held her in his arms very tenderly.
She kept refusing to admit that she had lost him.
Obviously, youth is only over half, but it seems like a lifetime.
On her 23rd birthday, even her parents held a big birthday party for her. In addition to well-known relatives and friends, there are many outstanding people from all walks of life present.
In marriage, she has always opposed the interference of her parents. But when she came back from Afghanistan, she turned around and played a good girl.
"Do you really want a blind date?" Feifei a face of don't believe, even the summer she knew would never compromise.
Xia Lian abandoned his mobile phone and looked gloomy: "Who have you lived with all your life?"
Ni Xia, who has always attached importance to love, said such a world-weary sentence, but Feifei was shocked: "Even in summer, even if the fish road doesn't want you, you can't harm people."
"Look who's unlucky." She laughed at herself, but her heart was desolate.
There is a time difference of three and a half hours between Beijing and Afghanistan. She waited from nine o'clock in the morning until nine o'clock in the evening, but there was no news of Fish Road.
"Go!" Feifei dragged her out of the room. "Let's go for a drink."
Xia Lian is wearing a short white skirt. Although she doesn't wear makeup, she is better than countless women with heavy makeup. Feifei often says that her beauty, though not thrilling, is pleasing to the eye.
Men from all walks of life came to greet her, and she answered absently.
"That's good." Feifei whispered in Xia Lian's ear.
She raised her eyes and followed the line of sight. A man in a blue shirt is walking. She paused for a moment and said, "Lin ... Lin Chenzi?"
Life is really wonderful. On that day, the airport set off, and the people she thought she would never see again came prepared tonight.
Holding a bouquet of champagne roses in his hand, he whispered, "Happy birthday!" " "
"What's the situation?" Feifei has a face of gossip. Only a few of her close friends know Xia Lian's beloved champagne rose, but this strange man has a crush on him.
Even Xia shrugged. She didn't tell Lin that she liked champagne roses. Maybe it's just a coincidence.
After a few drinks, even Xia was in a trance. She jumped onto the stage, grabbed the lead singer's microphone and hummed a Joker Xue song "I miss you".
"I miss you, I miss you, without you, nothing is right ..."
Part VII
Unlike, Lian's father is resolute and straightforward. He threw the ipad to Xia Lian and simply said, "See which one you like?"
She was forced to no way back, crustily skin of head, pointing: "He!"
Even his father was beaming. He dug out Lin's business card and handed it to Lin Xia. He repeatedly told him, "get along well and don't lose your temper."
The Lins started from a coal mine and are typical nouveau riche, but Lin is a clean stream of the Lins. He has a low profile and loves photography. The most important thing is that he has never had any affair.
Invite Lin to a hot pot restaurant. In the steaming, she ate to her heart's content, without any taboos.
Lin can't eat spicy food. He almost watched her finish the whole meal. She doesn't like meat, but she ate all kinds of vegetables on her plate.
After eating and drinking enough, Xia Lian went straight to the point: "We are not suitable?"
Lin is ingenious and unhurried. He said heavily, "How do you know it's inappropriate if you haven't tried it?"
"I have someone I like." She responded calmly.
"I know." Four years ago, at the university orientation party, she became famous overnight with Faye Wong's Red Bean, which captured the hearts of many boys. Over the years, people who love her have been wave after wave. She is weak in water and loves Fish Road alone.
He followed her for four years and she never looked back.
"You know, why did you agree to blind date?" Xia Lian doesn't understand that a rich boy like him needs a woman most, and he doesn't need to come to her to kill himself.
"Think of it as love at first sight." He is playing with a cup, serious and affectionate.
"Don't ..." His sudden seriousness made her panic. "I'm not as good as you think."
Chen Zixiao smiled and said nothing. He believes that as long as he is willing to wait, the clouds will disperse one day.
The next day, Xia Lian changed his mobile phone number and ran to Shanghai under the pretext of Feifei. But I met Lin at the airport.
Fate is so subtle, people who once had no intersection now make her afraid to avoid it.
Suddenly, she jumped up from her seat excitedly and rushed out with her suitcase.
Confused Lin ran after her and stopped her: "I'm going to board the plane." Where are you going? "
"He's back!" Even in summer, my eyes will shine, and I can't wait.
Lin stood stupefied. Four years of unrequited love, she has always been a distant dream for him.
Two hours later, in the cafe on the corner, Xia Lian saw the fish road. He was wearing a beige sweater and holding coffee in his hand, like a ray of sunshine in winter, which made her want to get close involuntarily.
Xia Lian nodded to the shopkeeper, pulled open a chair and sat down across the fish road. He was right in front of her eyes, near and far.
"Would you like some coffee?" His voice was weak and cold.
Xia Lian shook his head. She is gambling: "I have a blind date."
"hmm." He was expressionless, but consciously tightened the strength on the cup wall to relieve the sudden pain in his heart.
Xia Lian didn't give up, and finally she threw herself at him alone: "I want to marry him."
He replied faintly, "I'm glad you like it."
She panicked and held his hand tightly, and her voice suddenly tightened: "Fish Road, are we really unable to go back?"
He took away his hand, his lips slightly parted, cold and cruel: "Xia Lian, forget me."
Just a few words, but like a sword straight into Xia Lian's chest. She looked at him stupefied. He was expressionless, like an outsider, looking at her monologue coldly. She had to admit that he didn't want her.
When the curtain falls, it always ends.
Part VIII
When the wedding date with Lin was fixed, it flew.
In the circle of friends and Weibo, she publicized it with great fanfare for a month, and half of Beijing was almost known. And he, who is far away abroad, has no response.
She fidgeted, and the whole person seemed to be pushed to the edge of a cliff, in a dilemma.
Lin often accompanies her. He doesn't talk much, just like the faceless monster in Spirited Away, silently guarding her. She loathed to give up, don't want to use him, hurt him again.
After three rounds of drinking, she was confused and begged, "Feifei, please take me away from my marriage."
Feifei reached out and held her hand. They clasped their fingers, just like many years ago, when they were walking hand in hand in school uniforms, she gently replied to her, "Well, let's go to Moscow and see the Arctic Circle."
"hmm." She smiled and nodded, but her eyes shed tears for you.
The Arctic Circle. He also said he would take her to the Arctic Circle.
But now, things are different. He and she have been scattered all over the world.
The wedding day is getting closer and closer, and even Xia Yue is anxious. She began to suffer from insomnia and hair loss all night. I was taken by my mother to see a psychiatrist several times, but it didn't get better.
The doctor said she had a heart attack.
Feifei took a candid photo of her and sent it to Fish Road.
Just out of the delivery room, Yulu hasn't had time to change clothes, but when she saw the photos in her mobile phone, her eyes turned red. She is thin and haggard. For an instant, his heart seemed to have been stabbed, and the pain was sudden.
Love but not love.
A few months ago, the day before he went to Afghanistan, even his father went to see him, a peak sexually man in the shopping mall. The softest concern in my heart is my daughter's happiness. He is the man whom he denies.
He doesn't have a good family or even parents to rely on. The most important thing is that he can't give her stable happiness.
No father wants his daughter to live in fear all day.
Therefore, his last love for her is to let go of her hand.
But now, watching her getting thinner, he is regretting and blaming himself.
It's already 1 1 o'clock in the evening. Even in summer, I'm still awake. She stared at the phone quietly, and the screen suddenly lit up, like an aurora, which made her jump up and feel overwhelmed with excitement.
"Xia Lian, it's me." His voice trembled a little.
She closed her eyes and listened to his breathing quietly. It was a long time before she said, "I'm getting married."
She publicized it with great fanfare for nearly a month. How could he not know? He told her gently, "Eat well, sleep well, and don't get sick."
She was in tears, and the most tragic thing about love was not that she didn't get it, but that she lost it.
A short period, missed, is a lifetime.
End of movement
On the way to the airport by bus, Yulu was confronted with armed conflict and the car was hijacked.
In the chaos of the war, he passed death many times, but this time, he was run on. He held the plane ticket tightly, eager to fly to her and tell her that he still missed her.
However, fate makes people.
When the ashes and relics of Fish Road were sent back to China, Helin had just arrived in Moscow. A friend named Lin, in a panic, chose not to tell her. He wants her to be alive and happy.
So, he combined with all the people to create an imaginary world for her, where Fish Road is still alive.
After getting married for half a year, Lin Wei opened a coffee shop and bookstore. Fascinated by comics, she took a whole bookshelf to store books about MSF.
Many times, Feifei almost blurted out and was stopped by Lin. Then, Wen Ruya, for the first time, a man asked someone so sternly, "Do you want to see her die?"
Feifei was speechless and never dared to mention it again.
Slowly, Xia Lian seems to realize something. She has been to the hospital, to the community where Yulu once rented, and even looked through the international news in the past six months, but found nothing.
She often stares at the glass window and recites her favorite poem after he leaves:
"Fish sink and geese swim around the world, and I began to believe that the world is separated."
She knew that she couldn't wait for him any longer. Read some stories every day. App author: Ruan Xia | Reprinting is prohibited.