That year, first my husband and eldest brother went to the hospital for examination because of physical discomfort, and the result was diagnosed as nasopharyngeal carcinoma. The family panicked and took him to a big hospital for treatment. The first round of illness improved, and then I went home to recuperate. Before long, my father-in-law began to get sick again and went to the hospital for examination. It turned out to be cirrhosis, the heavier kind. My husband took him to the hospital for treatment and took medicine at home for a long time after discharge.
Later, my brother relapsed in the second round and went to the hospital for treatment again. During the hospitalization of eldest brother, her mother-in-law went to visit, accidentally broke her leg on the way and was admitted to the hospital. Because my mother-in-law has diabetes and heart disease, the hospital will not give surgery, and she will go home to rest after treatment for a period of time. At this time, I took my son to my mother-in-law's house to stay, cook for the family and take care of them by the way.
Watching my family suffer every day makes me feel like a knife, and I can't say how upset and depressed I feel. I think living is suffering, and it has no meaning at all.
However, the pain is not over yet. One day, my husband came to tell me that he had been in pain for a long time and didn't tell his family because he was taking care of his eldest brother in the hospital. So I took my husband to the hospital with a classmate, and the result was nasopharyngeal carcinoma! I was watching the results, and my mind was blank. I just stood there for half a day. My husband is a strong man, or he dragged me down the hospital building.
At home, we didn't sleep a wink all night, discussing how to treat him. At that time, the family was in financial difficulties, everyone was sick and spent a lot of money, so we decided to sell our house to treat the disease. The house was advertised for sale, and relatives and her husband's classmates came to help us. We went to the hospital with this gratitude. Thankfully, the doctor is very devoted to my husband's treatment.
During the period of radiotherapy and chemotherapy, my husband was tortured by electric baking with liquid medicine, and his neck was baked without skin, revealing flesh and blood. His weight changed from the original 160 kg to10/kg, just like a different person. My husband has a bad temper because he is ill and cares about his family. I naturally became his angry object and decompression bucket. I feel desperate in my heart, and once again I feel that people are suffering when they are alive.
More than a month later, I accompanied my husband home from the hospital. I saw my son's hair was long and dirty, and he didn't go to anyone who took him for a haircut. I waited for my father to come back, and my heart ached ... I went back to my original shop to work, and my husband was recuperating at home.
When I returned to the store, there happened to be a new shopping guide. She always takes a book to work and reads in her spare time. I was curious, so I went to read it and found that she was reading a Buddhist scripture published in the fourth economic and trade magazine. I asked her, "What can you do with this? She said, "I heard other people talking about your family in the shop. It's all karma Please read this book too. This is a Buddhist scripture. 」
I opened the book with curiosity. I don't know why. The moment I opened the Buddhist scriptures, my heart was particularly peaceful. I haven't experienced this taste for a long time. I turned the page, my eyes swept quickly, but my heart was so comfortable! My colleague reminded me: "Please turn over the scriptures slowly and be respectful. 」
So I stayed on the page I turned to at that time, and the Amitabha Sutra came into view. After watching it for a while, I thought, this place is really nice. Can I go now? With my thoughts, tears rushed out immediately, and I seemed to find a warm harbor helplessly! When I saw the death mantra behind the scripture, I liked it very much. I read it several times and said to my colleagues, "I seem to recite this mantra." Colleague said, "OK, you recite it for me. "I really back. My colleague said happily, "Come and learn Buddhism. You can get better by learning Buddhism. But I still hesitate. Can learning Buddhism keep your family from getting sick? I have a series of question marks in my heart.
When my husband sat down to rest after work, he was watching TV. I took the remote control and tuned the channel at will. Coincidentally, a large-scale documentary "The Story of the Western Regions of Datang" is being broadcast on a certain channel, telling the story of Master Xuanzang's arduous journey to India despite all kinds of difficulties. I was moved by the mage's firm belief and cried several times. If Buddhism is not so good, how can a mage sacrifice himself for Buddhism despite all kinds of difficulties and obstacles?
So I made up my mind to learn Buddhism and went to my colleague and said, "Please help me get some Buddhist scriptures. What should I do if I still don't understand them? " ? I will have a lot of questions to ask. "She said," I'll introduce you to a senior who studied Buddhism! So, I met a local Buddhist and told him all the problems. He gave me a Buddhist sutra player. I went home and opened it. It was a lecture given by monk Da 'an. I often listen with tears, and the more I listen, the warmer and more comfortable I feel! Knowing that Lin Dong's ancestral hall had built the Giant Buddha, I took part in the fund-raising activities. Although I only provided a small amount of money, I was happy for several days!
Later, when I went to the local temple for the first time to attend the Fa Conference, I saw the statue of Master Yin Guang in the temple. I went to worship, but I didn't dare to look into Yin Zuer's eyes, but I still wanted to. My tears flowed out and my heart was warm. Then, please read "master printer's money". Later, I often learned about Toringi. When watching the video of the opening ceremony of Lindong Buddha, I burst into tears, as if I had seen my long-lost relatives and heard Amitabha calling me: "Go home, son, how hard it is to wander outside!" From this, my belief in learning Buddhism is more firm and will not waver! The Pure Land Method has taken root in my heart, and I must go to Elysium in this life!
When I was studying Buddhism, my father-in-law became seriously ill and died. A year later, my eldest brother also died. I read the scriptures and do Buddhist services for them, and I deeply felt impermanence and rapidity. I realized how terrible it is to know nothing about the cycle of cause and effect and not find a way out! Later, my mother-in-law also went to the hospital for examination because of her poor health. As a result, she was diagnosed with advanced gastric cancer. The doctor said she could only live for six months at most. She is too weak to receive radiotherapy and chemotherapy, so she can only be treated conservatively and naturally.
So I said to my mother-in-law, "Read Buddha! I gave her a counter and beads, and also gave her a lecture machine by Master Da 'an to listen to, and advised her to practice blessing in temples more often. She usually has to go to work, so she can't accompany her to the temple all the time, so she reads Buddha by herself. My mother-in-law died this year. She lived more than two years longer than the doctor said. She walked peacefully and seemed to be asleep.
My mother-in-law and her family closed their eyes one by one in front of me, and my husband and I sent them the last journey. The performance of this impermanent drama makes me feel that there is nothing in this world that belongs to me, and nothing can be left! I deeply know that without the blessing of Buddha, my family will not stop suffering, and I am also very grateful to the masters who have been encouraging me during this period! Thanks to the lotus friends who read Buddha with me!
Actually, I am also a patient with severe anemia. Because I have been studying Buddhism, I don't have to take specific drugs every year. I just need to take some medicine properly. Live a good life before the end of my life and go to the western paradise with my loving father Amitabha. In short, you will never be afraid and confused again. Learning Buddha and chanting Buddha has made my life better. I am clean, peaceful and happy. There is a saying that there is no Amitabha in the south to accompany me all my life. I am safe in this world, and I can finally go to Elysium. How lucky I am!
My husband is in good health now and can maintain his normal work. At first, he opposed me to learn Buddhism, but now he understands and supports me. I am also silently praying for Buddha's blessing to learn Buddha and recite Buddha early. Now all the children left by the eldest brother are in college and become a member of my family. I hope our family can become a Buddhist. After my son graduated from high school, I want to take my husband and two children to the warm Torin Temple to participate in practical activities and pray for the blessing and protection of Buddha and Bodhisattva, so that they can all believe in Buddhism as soon as possible!
Although the illness at home has brought me hardships in life, I am grateful for these pains. It is these experiences that make me smell the breath of Buddhism and know that my ultimate destination is Elysium. If you have achievements and ability, you can help your family and all sentient beings get out of their misery and have fun. So much for the world of mortals. There is no peace in the three realms Only by honestly reciting Buddha and making a vow to live in the pure land of bliss is the ultimate complete liberation! Thanksgiving three treasures, thanksgiving lotus friends! May we follow the Buddha's words, stick to the family style of observing precepts and chanting Buddha, believe in Buddha and chanting Buddha, and achieve bliss together!
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