When I close my eyes and think of myself three months ago, I actually feel that the hellish pain before is appropriate. In the longer term, these seemingly peaceful days and these compliments are actually not what I really need.
I won't be grateful to the person who hurt me, but I am grateful to the person who has gone through such a long life journey, gave up in the difficult process, got rid of asking for help, and invited me to see an emotional counselor and an elite team with sincerity.
At that time, my help information was written like this:
Married her husband 17 years. His job is unique and he often goes out. When I got married, his leading cadres took good care of me and told me that he worked hard and was under great pressure, expecting me to understand him more.
Over the years, I have got almost everything at home, taking care of my children while working. Two years ago, I took care of my wife's stroke until she died.
Neighbors, relatives and friends all say that I am a good wife and mother; My husband often says that this family owes me a lot over the years.
But I am not happy. What I want is not my husband's gratitude, but real love.
But he never expressed his feelings for me, and he gave me a gift when he first got married, but I felt superficial and told him that he didn't need to spend money indiscriminately, so he might as well save money to buy a house.
After so many years, my family's economic development is getting better and better, and my husband doesn't have to go out for promotion; Then the wife died and the children boarded; There are only two of us at home, but I feel that this man is getting more and more strange.
Every day, apart from trivial matters at home, we seldom communicate. When he came home, he either brushed Tik Tok or was pregnant with a TV. I often tell him that it's bad for your health and your eyes, and let him come out to run with me. He said, I need to take care of everything. I'm annoyed and angry. I went home to talk about some business, and he didn't want to hear it.
I feel very uncomfortable inside. I feel that he doesn't care about me or me. Although I often enlighten myself, he is also a straight man of steel, and it is not easy to rhetoric. In fact, he is quite responsible, and all the money earned at home has been paid. However, the mentality is getting more and more depressed, and from time to time, the idea of divorce comes up when children are admitted to college.
Unexpectedly, I didn't wait until my child was admitted to college, but I waited for my husband to cheat.
Seeing these messages on his mobile phone, I was shaking all over; He has sent flowers, gifts, 520 red envelopes, sweet words and customs to third parties. It turns out that the kind of emotion I have been longing for is not that my husband is not easy, but that he is unwilling to help me. I suddenly collapsed!
After the incident was exposed, my husband said that he would return, saying that the woman was not a serious woman, and she had a husband at home, just playing outside and asking for money.
But I can't accept it at all I remember that he cared about such a woman and all kinds of gifts, but he never wanted to touch me. I really don't think he loved me.
Parents prefer boys to girls, and now my brother is incompetent. My parents' pension service is almost still under pressure. They always want me to help my brother. At the beginning, they were far away from home and wanted to solve this family. In recent years, they have regarded their husbands as their favorite people.
I-I don't know what to do in the days after divorce, and I don't know that my child has already taken the college entrance examination.
But now, every day we are together is very difficult. Although my husband is going to return, I am anxious to collapse when I think of the ending of one thing. I kept asking him endless questions. Now, he doesn't take the initiative to repair his feelings, and puts on a momentum of just passing by and not letting go.
I dare not make trouble again, but this kind of thing has never happened to him, for example. The man cheated on the woman to save the family, enjoyed my investment like the old man before, and asked me to cook, wash clothes and do housework. I was very angry! I hate him and blame myself every day!