When the sun has just dispelled the silence of the night and everything has experienced the infinity of the night, it is difficult to get hope.
However, Lu Yao in his hospital bed did not encounter hope and sunshine, and his life always stayed at the most dazzling and promising eight o'clock in the morning.
It stands to reason that people will look back on what they have experienced before they die and miss everyone in their lives. And every step of those mistakes will eventually be let go.
The same is true of Lu Yao, except that his life began to fall from the highest point. His illness did not make the people he had hurt forgive him, so there was no one around him before Lu Yao died.
This makes people feel sorry for him, but we can't blame those who have been hurt by him. Because it is okay not to forgive, only the injured are qualified to decide.
It's a pity that such a talented person has torn his brilliant life to pieces.
As a writer who has created such famous works as Ordinary World and Life. What did Lu Yao do to end up so miserable and neglected? What did his choice bring him?
For what reason and what fruit, in order to solve the result of Lu Yao, we can only go back to the source and look for his every choice.
Although Lu Yao has many well-known works, his life is not so lucky.
Like Lu Xun's Kong Yiji, Lu Yao's family is not rich, but he loves literature and thinks highly of himself. But fortunately got the support of the nobles, didn't end up like Kong Yiji.
His nobleman is his wife, a woman named Linda. Before the marriage between Lu Yao and Linda began, he had been struggling in pain.
Lu Yao had a girlfriend when he was young. He loves her very much. She was also Lu Yao's first love, named Lin Hong.
When we first met, as described in the book, Lu Yao was deeply fascinated by that glance. Lin Hong's smile blew into Lu Yao's heart like a breeze.
Lin Hong looks beautiful, and her voice is sweet. In Lu Yao's eyes, she is a perfect girl, and the other party is also attracted by Lu Yao's spirit.
The two hit it off and became the envious golden couple at that time. Everything in the first love is ignorant, like a veil, which makes people moved again and again.
But because the first love is not mature enough, the result is often sad, and Lu Yao is no exception. The affection between him and Lin Hong can't match the cruelty of reality.
Love means giving everything for each other. Lin Hong is Lu Yao's world, but Lu Yao is just a beautiful passer-by in his soul life. In order to make Lin Hong live a happier life, Lu Yao gave Lin Hong the work quota.
But unexpectedly, it was this decision that made them part ways, so Lin Hong fell in love with the military representative in the factory and broke up with Lu Yao.
Lu Yao's feelings were not satisfied and betrayed, which made him no longer enthusiastic about love and once struggled in pain, but Linda met Lu Yao at this time and gave him the warmest redemption.
Linda is an educated youth living in Beijing, the capital, while Lu Yao is a big shot from northern Shaanxi. Only because Linda went to the countryside, Lu Yao was forced to return home because of the cancellation of the college entrance examination, and the two talents met in this wonderful fate.
Linda's family is very good Her father is a returnee and used to work in the Overseas Chinese Affairs Office. Her mother is also a good family in Beijing. Linda, as an educated youth from a big city, is not supposed to like this dusty country man.
But in Linda's eyes, she felt that Lu Yao was shining from head to toe. He is humorous and talented, which stands out from the crowd. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and everything in Yao Lu is like a layer of gold, which is vividly reflected in Linda's eyes.
Linda and Lu Yao have the same hobby, which is literature, so they also have the same topic.
So they fell in love. At that time, few educated youths were willing to associate with local people, but Linda didn't mind the worldly vision. She only thinks that Lu Yao is her soul mate.
1977 when the national college entrance examination resumed, two people, both high flyers, wanted to go to school and improve themselves. Because of financial difficulties, Lu Yao couldn't afford the expensive tuition, so he put forward the desire to study to Linda, who is rich in economy.
Although Linda also wants to go to school, for the sake of her lover, she is willing to give up this opportunity and fully support Lu Yao to complete her dream.
However, Linda's love and sacrifice did not seem to leave a trace in Lu Yao's heart. So Linda later felt that her passion was disappointing and her love was humble and unworthy.
1978, Lu Yao and Linda got married in Yan 'an, officially became husband and wife, and entered the marriage hall. Linda's parents don't mind Luyao's poverty. They just want their daughter to live a happy life.
After getting married, Linda didn't enjoy the treatment of a princess. On the contrary, because Lu Yao is still at school, Linda has to work to support Lu Yao.
Linda scrimps and saves every month and gives the rest to Lu Yao. She hopes that Lu Yao can live well in the distance, but Lu Yao does not cherish the money, but is wasting it.
Linda couldn't bear to eat or wear the money she had saved, and Luyao ate and drank, all of which was spent on smoking addiction, so Luyao always had an empty pocket.
It is understandable that Lu Yao loves literature, but a man should be responsible for his family after marriage, and Lu Yao will never. In his mind, career always comes first.
Therefore, Linda has never enjoyed the care of Lu Yao in her ten-year marriage life. For children, Lu Yao did not fulfill his father's responsibility. He only cared about writing.
Although this kind of struggle finally came to fruition after the publication of Ordinary World, Lu Yao earned a considerable contribution fee, but he was still short of money because of his extravagance.
Lu Yao's extravagance only lies in his own enjoyment, but he has never contributed anything to his family. He goes out to eat for money, eats and wears freely, but never thinks about his wife and children.
In fact, no amount of money is enough for him to squander, and his high consumption also makes him owe a lot of foreign debts. Where is Linda? She hasn't had a good day since she married Lu Yao. She has to make money desperately to take care of her family and pay her debts for Lu Yao.
But even so, Lu Yao never felt sorry for Linda. Linda fainted once because of fatigue. Even so, she can't awaken the responsibility of Lu Yao's men.
But even so, Linda never complained about Yao Lu and never blamed him, but besides caring about her family, Yao Lu has drifted away from him.
Lu Yao cheated.
This has also become the last straw to crush Linda. Linda can endure a long journey without making progress and ignoring her family, but only if they are still soul mates and stay together.
When Linda learned that Lu Yao was cheating, she felt that Lu Yao was no longer worth her nostalgia. Instead, she will live a better life, and she can be reborn without a distance.
Linda filed for divorce.
This is not what Lu Yao wanted, so he begged for forgiveness and worked hard for it.
1July, 992, Lu Yao renovated the house in order to save his marriage. But in Linda's view, his retention can't make up for Lu Yao's harm to her.
So Linda is determined to divorce Lu Yao. So that Lu Yao finally fell ill in bed, Linda didn't forgive him, but insisted that he sign a divorce agreement.
Linda looked at Yao Lu in the hospital bed and tried to say something, but in the end she didn't say anything. Linda's heart is dead, and she thinks it's no use talking more.
In the end, all the goodwill of the two people turned into a sigh and a divorce agreement.
The mistake in this contradiction has always been a long way to go. Because of Lu Yao's escape from her family and indifference to Linda, Linda left her with endless sighs and a tired body from hard work since she got married.
She takes care of her daughter, but she is too busy to take care of the elderly. But Lu Yao was unfaithful to another person in his life, which led to the tragedy of this marriage. Lu Yao failed Linda who loved him deeply.
Finally, Lu Yao also saw the result of this incident and agreed to divorce Linda.
In fact, Lu Yao came to the end without anyone around him, which was a warning, because he drove away not only his wife, but also his younger brother.
Lu Yao was conceited since he was a child, especially after he grew up and achieved something.
He grew up in a poor family, which led to his potential inferiority complex. When he grows up, he is eager to let everyone see his achievements and drive away his inner inferiority, so he shows considerable conceit, which is also reflected in his excessive consumption.
Lu Yao was adopted by his uncle when he was seven years old, so he had a younger brother named Wang Tianle in his life. Since having this younger brother, Lu Yao's creative inspiration has also increased.
The two are the most important people in each other's lives, and the younger brother is also the savior of Lu Yao, but Lu Yao is not grateful and finally feels natural.
Lu Yao's love for literature is undeniable and unparalleled. All his patience and enthusiasm are devoted to writing and writing.
In order to make the text warm and full of emotion, and generate a * * * sound with readers, he will scrutinize every word, and every idea comes from truth.
Lu Yao spent four years writing Ordinary World. For this job, he is like his own child, giving him nutrition day and night.
Even though Lu Yao was sick because of writing at that time, he didn't give up. In order to write, he was at a loss, tossing and turning day and night for a long time, and cigarette butts piled up.
In this creation, my brother, as a bystander, is also very distressed and has always taken care of him.
Ordinary World, as Lu Yao's favorite child, was not recognized by others at first, so the blow to Lu Yao was very fatal.
Lu Yao watched others criticize his works and watched his efforts go to waste. He began to think about life and became confused. The whole mind and spirit have serious problems.
This time, it was my brother Wang Tianle who came out with Lu Yao. He encouraged Lu Yao, took care of him and took good care of him, which made his mood and body better.
And his favorite child "Ordinary World" has finally been recognized by the world and won the Mao Dun Literature Award, which is an award that all insiders want to win.
The bonus is as high as 30 thousand yuan, but for Lu Yao, money is not the most important. The most important thing is that he has been recognized, his status has been improved, and his whole life is shining.
But his pride didn't last long, just because of his brother's kindness, which made Lu Yao feel extremely angry and inferior.
Lu Yao wanted to stand on the stage to receive the prize in person, but because of long-term extravagance and waste, he was penniless and had no money to buy a ticket to arrive at the scene.
My younger brother Wang Jiale knows that this is all Lu Yao's painstaking efforts and what this award means to him. So he wanted to help Lu Yao, but his method made Lu Yao disagree.
Lu Yao has great face. He feels that he is famous now, and he shouldn't show a miserable scene.
So he always invites people to dinner and always helps others unconditionally.
In order to help him raise money, my brother asked people to borrow money everywhere, and also asked local leaders to find ways to help Lu Yao fulfill his wish.
Lu Yao was furious when he knew. The image and self-esteem he worked so hard and carefully to maintain were all forgotten by his brother's behavior.
He felt that borrowing money in this way was a shame and a beggar's behavior. He has become a gentleman. What he needs is someone to borrow money from him.
Now, my brother is raising money in his name, which is not a slap in the face. Lu Yao felt that his younger brother had violated his bottom line.
The two men had a heated argument about it. The younger brother thinks he is thinking about Lu Yao, but he doesn't understand why his brother takes face so seriously.
The younger brother even thinks that in his brother Lu Yao's heart, face is more important than anything, including brotherhood. Because of this quarrel, the two became estranged.
But what really broke up between them was the last thing that happened in Lu Yao's life.
Because Linda wants to divorce Luyao, and Luyao is ill in bed, it is her brother Wang Tianle who has been busy. While dealing with their divorce, he has to take care of Lu Yao's daughter Lu Yuan.
But even Wang Tianle put all his energy and time on Lu Yao, who was still not satisfied.
Lu Yuan has been in a bad temper since she learned the news of her parents' divorce. Wang Tianle can only accompany her and help her release her bad mood.
But Lu Yao complained that his younger brother didn't take care of himself, so when his younger brother came to the hospital, Lu Yao couldn't help complaining about his younger brother. He began to get angry and miserable.
My younger brother feels that he has done his best for Lu Yao, but he still has to put up with his brother's dissatisfaction with him. As a result, their relationship broke down completely, and Wang Tianle left Yao Lu in a fit of pique and never went to see him again.
But even so, Wang Tianle did not forget to hire a nurse for him, which was his last help to Lu Yao.
Lu Yao didn't realize his own problems, but complained that his younger brother didn't want him because he had no use value. The implication is that it is his brother's responsibility that they have come this far.
Lu Yao is also very distressed by the care worker hired by his younger brother, and feels that the other party has not taken care of him wholeheartedly.
And this attitude also completely cut off the brotherhood of two people, until the countdown of Lu Yao's life, my brother never came again.
Lu Yao finally passed away with regret, and there was no one around him.
Lu Yao once wrote such a sentence: "Everyone in life is constantly losing their most precious things."
I don't know who Lu Yao was thinking when he wrote this sentence.