I have no house, no car and no savings. I was lucky that my husband dragged me into debt. These debts were owed by my husband in his early years.
I was born in my twenties, so my husband held my hand tightly. At this thought, I suddenly felt that life was hopeless.
Look at the classmates and friends around us. They are all married and established, from three employees to three employees. They can eat whatever they want, buy whatever they want, and spend money without mercy. Look at my empty wallet and bank card that has never had a three-digit balance. It can really be said that envy, jealousy and hate …
I envy their good luck, whether through their own efforts or because the family is already rich, they can stop worrying about trivial things in life and get everything easily.
I am jealous that they are the same age as me and why they are so lucky. I'm no worse than anyone. I am smart and capable. I work hard. Why do I work so hard but I can't get what I want …
So I hate, I hate God's unfairness, I hate, I hate myself, I hate myself for failing to live up to expectations, having no good luck and not having enough ability, and I can't be a strong woman. Can't get what you want ...
My job is a recorder. I work hard in a city alone, and I spend five or six thousand yuan a month. I talk too much and say too little.
This salary used to be enough for me to spend whatever I wanted, but now I'm struggling to pay my debts every month, not to mention spending a lot of money.
Alas! Can only say that this is life, life is bitter. I've already vomited. I've vented. Life is not easy. For my house and car, there can be more than five digits in the bank card, so I have to continue moving bricks …