A daze of prose

I haven't thought about myself for a long time.

On this day, when the work was finished and people were tired, they fell asleep on a blanket covered with grass. When I wake up, my limbs are relaxed, my brain is moist, my tongue is full of desire to speak, my soul is revived, and my eyes are full of desire to look directly at the world. God, when I woke up, it was beautiful dusk all around.

Sleep has really changed a lot. I haven't slept so thoroughly for a long time. I remembered the plot of "Wake Up from a Big Dream" recited by Zhuge Liang and Conan's dream story.

People seem very different when they are alive, but they all look the same. I can always understand many truths in the world, and then I won't change them after I understand them: for example, when I haven't finished making money, I have been making it hard without knowing it; For example, on the day when the work was not finished, I was very tired to work overtime; For example, children and grandchildren have their own blessings, but they are unconsciously worried about them; For example, you know that no official is overweight, but you are stuck in officialdom. ...

Life is like a big dream. Sometimes, before sleeping this dream, it's not enough to compare with others. That's not enough. I always feel a lot less. I have always believed that if you find the goal of life, there will be a process of hard work and struggle, and naturally there will be a beautiful life. In fact, struggling and enjoying life is just a form of life. There are more attached feelings in life, attached to it, hidden in the heart without knowing it. Sometimes, it's good for us to take a rest, turn off our cell phone for a day, cut off the power supply for a day, or even be hungry for a full meal, because we are immersed in a healthy life without knowing it. It is a good thing to be able to spend a silly day, arrange a single life at home, quietly count the time that a person flows through his fingers, think nothing, do nothing and try nothing.

The so-called achievements in the course of life are nothing more than fame, profit, money and power. Those worldly things attached to the outside will feel uncomfortable if they are missing, gone or gone. However, once too many occupations are too heavy to let go, it will become a burden of life. Name, no, just a little; Benefit, indispensable, enough; Money is not everything, just spend enough; Yes, just a little, as long as you don't get bullied at will. In fact, what we need in life is so little, and the rest may be superfluous.

These days, I have been visiting an old friend in the hospital. He came to the capital for treatment from the city where I used to work. He used to be tall and burly, full of inexhaustible energy. I know that when he was young, it took him only two days to pull the earth mat and hit a big courtyard wall easily by himself. It is such a big man who has strong working ability and likes to be praised. This time, he is really finished. After surgery and repeated examination, he found that his condition was very bad. When his lungs were in the advanced stage, the doctor said that it was a year long and half a year short. He himself is still full of hope and longing for the future under the strong concealment of his family. After leaving the hospital, he still unconsciously plans to take his wife to the mainland to play.

There are different perspectives on life. My perspective is that the quality of life lies not in the length, nor in the level of class or wealth, but in the happiness and joy he enjoys inside. My father seems to be ordinary all his life. Like most farmers in China, he is waiting for the rest of his life after having a child. In fact, he is not happy in reality. He doesn't know how to express his love for his children and his wife. In the communication with children, he doesn't know how to communicate with children emotionally, and he doesn't know how to call to greet each other to make him happy and let them feel the happiness of being missed in the communication. In his attitude towards my mother, he hardly devoted himself to each other, but more thought of each other and created a feeling of happiness; More unfortunately, my mother treated him the same way. This is his unhappiness and the reason why he makes more people around him unhappy.

I remember when I was working in the countryside, I often went to the homes of poor households helped by the unit. This is my job. Walking is actually watching them busy, busy making money, busy going out, busy opening a farmhouse and busy doing housework. However, after several times, their behavior made me particularly disappointed and angry. Their family doesn't work or earn money in broad daylight. At noon, everyone will lie on the grass and sleep in the sun, wrapped in a worn-out wool felt. The deputy village head who went with him was also very angry. He felt ashamed of his work in the village, and kicked a valet's ass with his feet wearing pointed leather shoes. The man opened one eye and saw us. At first, he smiled and then pointed to the room, meaning that there was tea and cigarettes in the room, so we could receive them ourselves. I went to bed before I finished speaking. I really don't know how they got so much sleep when they came into this world. On that day, we found out all the milk tea, cheese, sugar cubes and milk wine left over from his family, drank them all, even finished smoking, but didn't leave any, so that they could have a good sleep.

Two days later, the man rode happily to see us again. This guy doesn't remember or hold grudges, and happily brought us thick milk cans, golden cream and white cheese bags, which is a return visit. It turns out that he continues to live a happier life than we do.

After a long time, they influenced me and I changed. I don't know from whom I learned laziness and forgetfulness, learned to give up and give up, and learned not to learn and pursue; I just found out that I no longer care about the promotion and salary increase of the unit, the inspection and acceptance, and the evaluation of advanced places. I no longer care about who published the book, who got the manuscript fee, who became popular in the cultural field, and I don't care much about the level of children's grades. The living conditions of other people's families are worse than mine. I don't know when to start learning from the villagers. As long as I'm not in a hurry, I'll walk out of the boring office full of slogans and portraits, hold a roll of soft' new felt' in my arms, find a place with trees, grass, shade and water, lie down for a while, or simply sit on a piece of air-dried pine; Then, think nothing, don't worry about anything, and the world has nothing from now on. Looking at the clouds in the sky, watching the birds in the sky, looking at the wings of the eagle in the sky for a long time, listening to the crackling sound of pine trees, listening to the whispers of insects among grass trees, listening to the call of cattle, horses and sheep, and smelling the strong smell of wild flowers, broken grass trees and rosin.

I will suddenly think of my past, accompanying my father, my friends, my unit, my leadership, my career, my wealth, and many lazy villagers. In fact, we all distorted our understanding of happiness and made a mistake. Sometimes we take happiness lightly or seriously. The lighter one seems to have a handful of money in his hand, and happiness will come on its own. It seems that there is no happiness, and everything is hard to come by.

A few days ago, I was laughing at a short article entitled "Living in a daze" on WeChat. It said that some young people in the mainland deliberately gave up their jobs and salary bonuses that everyone envied, and chose a way to release themselves away from the bustling metropolis. They went to Kanas, Lhasa and Nepal, where modern civilization did not interfere, and lived a life without thinking or asking for anything for a few days. Only then did I understand the meaning and stopped laughing at them. In fact, these young people are much smarter than our generation and can feel the difference in the world. Whether you have money or not, whether you have the right or not, whether you have the guarantee of life or not, you can live this day well, and this is the day when you enjoy happiness.

It seems that there are still many roads leading to a happy garden in life. Besides, happiness is the goal of life.

So, I began to think, when and where, I also want to go to the place where they want to stay for a few days, bask in the sun, listen to the wind, smell the wild wind, stand there, sit on the ground and see there; Eat when you are hungry, sleep when you are lazy, and then be in a daze. This kind of life will be very enjoyable.

There are many little things in life that are worth learning, including these young people who want to live in a daze. They are all in different fields of life and naturally become my life mentors.