Qin Wang, 36, can't remember when he began to lose himself. Husband Zhao Xinyuan is an engineer, five years older than her. They have an 8-year-old son.
Just graduated, Qin Wang went to the city where Xinyuan Zhao worked, regardless of his parents' objections, and found a job as a financial broker in a state-owned enterprise, with a professional counterpart. During that time, they were inseparable, and Zhao Xinyuan treated Qin Wang like a daughter. He does all the housework and washes Qin Wang's underwear. Zhao Xinyuan often says: Wife, if you don't want to work, your husband will support you. At that time, Qin Wang thought it was good to meet Zhao Xinyuan in my life.
After two years together, Qin Wang got pregnant unexpectedly. Then take a wedding photo and get married in a hurry. After I resigned, I was at home with peace of mind. Now that I think about it, Zhao Xinyuan's tenderness and consideration for herself was somewhat ignored at the pregnancy meeting, but during that time, her mind was mostly on the unborn baby and she didn't feel anything wrong.
When she was pregnant, Zhao Xinyuan stayed up all night twice. The next morning she went into the bathroom to take a bath and washed the dirty clothes at once. Qin Wang also made a scene, and Zhao Xinyuan coaxed him. Finally, he believed that he was just going out to sing with his colleagues, who made it very clear. His colleague Qin Wang is familiar with this, and Qin Wang's pride makes her disdainful to prove it. After all, in the eyes of colleagues, Zhao Xinyuan is a toad eating swan meat, and Qin Wang herself thinks so.
Qin Wang is really beautiful, with white skin, long legs and big breasts. She still exudes the breath of youth, and Zhao Xinyuan likes to take her everywhere. Before pregnancy, Zhao Xinyuan wanted her almost every night, but after pregnancy, she was always scolded by Qin Wang. Later, I thought that Zhao Xinyuan, who has always made Qin Wang feel honest and single-minded, should visit her more than once or twice when she was pregnant. At that time, Qin Wang was more willing to believe Xinyuan Zhao's explanation. She had confidence in herself, but she didn't realize that her deepest heart could tolerate her husband's infidelity.
After her son was born, her mother-in-law came to take care of Zi Yue. Although a little awkward, her mother-in-law is clean and outspoken. Qin Wang is as laid-back as ever, but she is also very happy. Xin is also happy to come home from work, Doby's son. At night, touching Qin Wang's breasts during lactation can't help but make love. Occasionally, she complains that her breasts are not as tight as before. During that time, Zhao Xinyuan went home happily after work. Colleagues and friends stayed up late and didn't go much. This family is happy and peaceful.
When my son was one year old, the company sent Xinyuan Zhao to a new project in Yunnan, in a small village. After several discussions, Qin Wang resigned and went back to his hometown in Xinyuan Zhao to take care of the children until they were older.
On the second day of Zhao Xinyuan's trip to Yunnan, her mother-in-law took her son, and Qin Wang sold what she could at home alone. Everything she wanted to send home was packed and she contacted the logistics company. Finally, she contacted the landlord and said that the deposit would be refunded by half. After living in one place for almost four years, she said that she would leave soon. Even if Qin Wang doesn't want to, there's nothing he can do. New Zhao Yuan is not here. Who can she rely on in the future? At least she has family back home. Qin Wang took care of everything in one day and took what he wanted to eat on the way. The next morning, before dawn, he drove to expressway, 13 hours before he got home. Qin Wang held the steering wheel so tightly that he couldn't even blink his eyes.
If the new Zhao Yuan were here, it would be his business, and Qin Wang would only pour out a few words. But in the future, Qin Wang is the only thing that matters, and Zhao Xinyuan is beyond his power.
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The project in Yunnan started in 1945. At first, Qin Wang and Zhao Xinyuan talked on the phone every day, telling each other about their lovesickness. Two people together for more than one thousand days and nights, suddenly not used to separate.
In my hometown, Qin Wang just takes care of the children every day. Zhao Xinyuan's salary is more than enough for a family. My mother-in-law is responsible for everything at home and lives a leisurely life.
But at night, when her son fell asleep, there was silence all around, and Qin Wang felt empty and lonely. She missed Zhao Xinyuan's dishonest hands so much that she thought that Qin Wang's legs were constantly clamped. She sent a message to Zhao Xinyuan, "Husband, I miss you." Zhao Xinyuan responded that she missed her very much, and sometimes she said something she wanted to do with her, touched her chest, teased Qin Wang's nerves, and made Qin Wang feel more hot and dry. Only slowly, Zhao Xinyuan sometimes stopped responding in time until the next morning when she replied, "Wife, I miss you too. I fell asleep last night and didn't see the information. "
During the Spring Festival, Zhao Xinyuan will go home for half a month, which is something that Qin Wang has been looking forward to for a long time. During the day, she and Zhao Xinyuan took their son to eat, drink and have fun in a small town, and put him to bed early at night. They were panting and passionate. Qin Wang feels that her body and mind are full at this time, and she likes this feeling. Only in the matter of husband and wife, he is more and more active, and Zhao Xinyuan sometimes seems to be unable to cope.
In Xinyuan Zhao's third year in Yunnan, his son went to kindergarten. Qin Wang doesn't want to be idle at home either. She wants to go out to work and go to Yunnan. Xinyuan Zhao didn't agree. He said that Qin Wang doesn't need to make money, and his son is in kindergarten. Qin Wang can do what he likes during the day or go shopping, and stay with his son at night. His son can't live without his mother's company. To this end, Qin Wang also had a cold war with Zhao Xinyuan for four or five days, and Zhao Xinyuan didn't coax her. Later, her son wanted to watch his father on video, so he made it up in a muddle. At that time, Zhao Xinyuan said: Wife, when I finish this project, I will apply to transfer back to the company. I'll bring you and your son over then, and our family will be reunited. Please bear it again.
Qin Wang's family of three began to look forward to the early completion of the Yunnan project.
Qin Wang is always busy. He found a job as a clerk in a small county with a salary of less than 2000 yuan, but he was also at leisure. After work, Qin Wang is no longer so empty, and gradually has a few friends who can go shopping and eat in their spare time. Knowing that Qin Wang had gone to work, Zhao Xinyuan was very unhappy at first, complaining that she shouldn't pay for something. Qin Wang explained that she didn't do it for money, but just wanted to enrich herself. One or two months before she started working, Zhao Xinyuan made frequent phone calls. When she went to work or got off work in Qin Wang, she basically called on time. While caring about Qin Wang's health, she reminded her to go home early to accompany her son. Xin-that little mind, Qin Wang is clear, but she felt a little relieved.
Qin Wang, who returned to the workplace, had more contact with people and was slowly surrounded by three or two pairs of good men, which made her regain her confidence a long time ago. Looking at myself at 3 1 year-old in the mirror, my skin is still tight and smooth, and my figure is similar to that of my girlhood, which is a little more charming. Qin Wang posed sexy and provocative in front of the camera with a charming smile. Although she knows in her heart that those men don't love her, they just covet her body and want to sleep with her, but they still can't hide her inner joy and pride. She doesn't completely reject their flattery and flattery, and she doesn't make a clear statement. It's exciting to handle, at least it can make her life like a ripple of stagnant water.
Of course, Qin Wang will still have many nights when his body is too hot and his legs are unconsciously clamped. I really answered the sentence "Women are thirty like wolves and forty like tigers". Qin Wang wants to be a man. He wants to be held in his arms and rubbed into the meat. At this time, Qin Wang loves and hates Xin, who is far away in Yunnan, and thinks it is necessary for him to keep his body clean. But this is limited to thinking. Qin Wang will really support Zhao Xinyuan. Her wish is to vent her anger when she meets Zhao Xinyuan.
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The child went to the middle class, and Zhao Xinyuan's project in Yunnan was finally completed. Qin Wang thought, a family of three will soon be reunited and will not be separated. Just when she was looking forward to a beautiful day, Zhao Xinyuan told her that the transfer back to the company would be suspended for two years, and the company sent him to Guizhou for promotion. Qin Wang shouted hysterically into the phone: Zhao Xinyuan, you liar! Liar! I can't live this life.
After Qin Wang hung up the phone, tears kept flowing. For four years, she has been looking forward to the early reunion of the three. In her mind, she often imagines a family of three sitting on the sofa watching TV after dinner every day and going for an outing in the park on weekends. Zhao Xinyuan spends less than 20 days with her mother and son every year. Although there are constant telephone videos, they can replace a fart. Qin Wang's mind recalled the dribs and drabs of Zhao Xinyuan before she became pregnant with her son. It was really good then.
I still want to live, and I will adjust myself slowly in those days. It's only been two years. Alas, it doesn't matter how many years have passed. This happened in the past few years. In those days, Zhao Xinyuan called and she didn't answer, and WeChat QQ didn't return. Zhao Xinyuan just said, "I'm sorry, I'm helpless, and I want her to be more considerate." Qin Wang looks more tired.
Two years is really fast, and my son went to primary school in a blink of an eye. Qin Wang has also changed. Her job has changed several times. She has a group of friends who go shopping together. Her dress is one size too big, and there are chloasmas on her face ... A bunch of changes remind her that she is not the same.
Zhao Xinyuan finally transferred back to the company as he wished, and the house was bought two years ago. 120 Ping Da San Room is near Zhao Xinyuan Company. When we moved to our new home, we were both very happy and our wishes came true. Xinyuan Zhao has entered a new working environment, and his son has entered a new school. Everything is in good order.
Qin Wang looked at the empty house, from the living room to the dining room to the master bedroom to the study to the second bedroom, back and forth, spotless everywhere, clean and tidy, this is the result of her just labor. She was relieved and finally came to the end.
Every afternoon, I pick up my son, do my homework in his study and prepare dinner in Qin Wang kitchen. I also look at the time from time to time and try to prepare meals on time, so that Zhao Xinyuan can eat steaming and delicious meals as soon as she enters the door.
After dinner, Qin Wang packed the dishes, the family of three went downstairs for a walk, and then took a bath at home. A family of three sat together to watch a movie, although the son always ran into the room to play games. This is the long-awaited situation in Qin Wang.
Just married life is not what Qin Wang expected. Qin Wang thought Xin Xin was as impatient as the previous two years, and she could wake Qin Wang up in the middle of the night, which angered the screams. But the reality is that Zhao Xinyuan rarely takes the initiative. Every time she does something, she is sloppy and can snore without talking. Almost all Qin Wang is active, which makes Qin Wang feel quite stuffy, but she will take the initiative next time. On several occasions, Qin Wang deliberately put on sexy underwear, and Zhao Xinyuan showed impatience. Qin Wang ordered New Zhao Yuan to do this four or five times a week, as if to make up for the losses in previous years.
Slowly, Zhao Xinyuan always sleeps in the study on the grounds of overtime. Qin Wang was very angry, but there was nothing he could do.
Qin Wang wants to go out and find a job, relax and enrich his spirit. However, at the age of 36, she doesn't have a good field. Her job has changed frequently in recent years, and her major has long been forgotten. It seems that she is either tall or low. Zhao Xinyuan and her son also hope that she will not go to work, and her family needs her. Zhao Xinyuan hopes to look back after work, and her son is used to his mother's constant company.
Qin Wang himself has been missing for a long time. She lives for her two favorite men.
One day during a nap, Qin Wang dreamed that she was back in her girlhood, wearing a long cotton dress and sketching in the suburbs. The golden rape blossoms everywhere in the sunset are all in her paintings.
After waking up, Qin Wang immediately bought easels, brushes, paints and other materials online, and then separated the study into his own world. She thinks that at the age of 36, she has herself besides her husband and son.