When Su Tian's flight landed at Kennedy Airport, there was heavy snow in the night sky and the smell of Christmas was everywhere in the city.
Wearing a carefully selected coat, beloved wool scarf and delicate makeup, she hobbled down the street with a heavy suitcase, and her boots crunched on the snow. Cheerful Christmas songs are flying in the ear, and colorful Christmas trees are dotted with the city under the night. She sniffed, only to feel full of joy.
Maybe from summer, maybe earlier, she began to look forward to this winter.
It is a wonderful thing to look forward to it for a long time and work hard for it. For this day, she can walk in the streets of new york, braving the heavy snow to see him. She started planning very early, saved a little money, slowly learned to make up, and carefully studied new york culture. Sometimes she feels as busy as a top, but such rapid rotation makes her feel happy and full.
Yes, it's all for him-she met the boy online for two years.
2
Su Tian knows that he is debating at school.
He was fascinated by her as soon as he appeared. It's not because he is too handsome, she just feels that there is a special light in his eyes, which distinguishes him from other debaters and fascinates her.
Two years later, when she recalled these things, her mouth always rose slightly, as if it were sweet to her heart. Although she doesn't remember the debate, she doesn't remember winning or losing, but she will never forget that his name is Lin Fei and his brilliant spirit when he won the best debater medal.
At that time, he was radiant.
She was amused that love came so suddenly. But Cupid was so naughty that a sudden arrow hit her so accurately.
After several days of hard work, she got his contact information. There is no doubt that she can't wait to confess to him.
Lin Fei in the chat software is still gentle. He said that he was going to study in America soon, so he might leave her alone.
In love, Su Tian never thinks that distance is a problem. More importantly, Lin Fei did not agree easily, which is a very gentleman's move in her view.
She stopped acting rashly and just chatted. Fortunately, they always get along well.
three
"I'm going to chase a boy!" When Su Tian told the news to his best friend Jiang Yichen in the video, he almost spit out the coke in his mouth.
"Oh, big miss, which way did the fairy open your love line? I don't know who said you can't fall in love until you are 30. Who said anything about being addicted to learning? " Jiang Yichen said, rolling their eyes.
"You're so ugly, I'm scared." Su Tian covered her eyes in horror. "Now the situation has changed!"
Jiang Yichen recovered his normal expression and asked seriously, "Do you know him?"
"Is gradually understand that everything is going well. Hey, would you stop being so serious? I just want you to know. " Su Tian smiled and said.
"Then I wish you happiness." Jiang Yichen assumed a mean expression. "I'm going to see my brother!"
Su Tian smiled and turned off the video.
Jiang Yichen and Su Tian are primary school classmates. They witnessed each other's most naive and ignorant time. Su Tian thinks they are too familiar and can only be girlfriends.
What's more, since the childhood, there has been no shortage of girls around Jiang Yichen, and his heterosexual relationship is good enough to make Su Tian a little jealous.
What makes Su Tian feel lucky is that a more attractive little brother was given to her by God.
four
A month later, Su Tian offered to meet.
Lin Fei promised very readily. He said that he would leave China soon anyway, so it was appropriate to say goodbye in person.
Su Tian felt suddenly stung by something. Yes, it's the coming distance. Although she has the confidence to overcome it, she can't avoid losing her fear.
This is her 19' s first date. She looked at herself nervously in the mirror and felt as if her life was undergoing some unspeakable changes.
Lin Fei walked into the cafe with the afternoon sunshine. He is wearing a casual sweater and jeans, which is very different from the stadium, but he is still like Su Tian. He looked at the embarrassed Su Tian and smiled. Even the sunshine seems to stay on his face willingly.
Su Tian is a little dizzy. She seems to be at a loss for words. She felt that Lin Fei in front of her was like a prince coming out of a fairy tale, shrouded in a halo, so amazing that she couldn't see the outline clearly.
Finally, Lin Fei spoke first. He said, "Tian Tian, I like you, too. However, I am afraid that it is difficult for us to be together. "
Su Tian quickly said, "Don't worry, I will go to new york to see you."
"Really?" Lin Fei opened his eyes wide, and Su Tian saw a different kind of light from there, just like the light he gave off on the court. But then, the light dimmed again. "Forget it, it costs a lot of money to go back and forth."
"No, you must believe me." Su Tian seems to see hope. She persevered and paid close attention to Lin Fei.
Lin Fei was moved. He nodded and gently shook Su Tian's hand.
On the way back to the dormitory, Su Tian felt as if she were walking on a cloud. She is going to start fighting for her beloved boy.
five
How painful the days of Sauvignon Blanc are. Su Tian always thinks of Kawabata Yasunari's sentence "I saw begonia flowers wake up at four in the morning", and always feels that he is so far away when he should be by his side.
She watched her roommate get dressed up and go out with her boyfriend, envied them for less than an hour's drive, listened to her vivid details of their love, looked at the joy overflowing from her eyes, and then silently went to the canteen to cook the cheapest meal. She was afraid to buy clothes and cosmetics for herself and gave up milk tea snacks.
She often imagined the scene when they met. He saw how she would hug her in surprise, how they would watch fireworks together, and walk and kiss together on a snowy night.
While falling into a sweet fantasy, she tried to live in a cold reality.
"I spent half a year's savings for you and traveled to see you. For this party, I even practiced breathing repeatedly when I met. " Every time she hears this melodious song, she can't help crying. She was surprised before, but now she finally understands why some songs can make people cry so easily. Just because people often find their memories in other people's lyrics.
Lin Fei was busy with his study abroad. Finally, he left only good morning and good night greetings to the two of them. But Su Tian didn't care about being sad. She just wanted to save money and immediately flew to the other side of the ocean to hug him.
During this period, Jiang Yichen came out to soak from time to time, laughing at Su Tian's naive planning ideas and distant goals, and asked her if she needed help. "I'm just afraid that when you save enough money, how old is Lin Fei's son."
"Fuck off!" Su Tian banged on the keyboard angrily.
six
The snow has not stopped. Su Tian felt that her hand had lost consciousness. Trembling, she took out her mobile phone and found that there were seven or eight missed calls from Jiang Yichen.
"Miss big, have you arrived? I thought you crashed. Is it wrong to choose a portrait photo for you? " Jiang Yichen is still as poisonous as before.
Just don't know why, Su Tian, who has always been angry and unyielding, suddenly shed tears when she heard a familiar voice in a foreign night. She choked and said, "I'll see him soon." Don't call again. "
Jiang Yichen hung up before she could speak. She was afraid that she would suddenly become weak and burst into tears. She couldn't tell the reason herself, but at that moment, she was obviously going to meet her sweetheart, but she felt inexplicable helplessness and injustice.
I don't know how long it took, but when she stood in front of the apartment she missed so much, her hair was covered with snowflakes. Snow mixed with tears rolled down her cheeks.
After a while, Lin Fei opened the door.
He was as beautiful as she remembered, wearing a hooded sweater and slippers and looking sleepy. Seeing that she was almost soaked in snow, he was speechless for a moment.
When his roommate came out, he saw that they were speechless and blinked and said, "Hey, brother, didn't you say you were single?"
Lin Fei turned around and said seriously, "This is my classmate. Don't talk nonsense. " Then turned to her, "you must have something else? Can I help you? "
Su Tian suddenly became discouraged. It turned out that she went to great pains just to visit him, which was a heresy in his eyes, all in the name of ordinary friends. He doesn't remember the agreement two years ago?
seven
Su Tian stared at his mature and steady face, only feeling incredible. A few minutes ago, she was imagining how to jump into his arms and drag him around happily like a little girl, but now, everything is so out of date, and the sweet surprise becomes awkward and powerless.
Lin Fei's roommate walked into the room carefully. She and Lin Fei are sitting in a small living room. She imagined ten thousand scenes where they met, but she didn't expect such a pale way.
Su Tian felt that all the loneliness and sadness that had been hidden in her heart for two years, and all the ups and downs that she longed to share, naturally vanished.
Lin Fei began to talk about his study and work. His eloquence is still great, but those strange nouns and long words are really out of reach for Su Tian.
In the past two years, Su Tian only wanted to keep pace with him materially, but forgot that the human spirit is the most fickle and difficult to coordinate.
She thought that their meeting two years later could save his heart, but unconsciously pushed him further and further.
Their mode of getting along is more and more like catching up with the past, and the topic is becoming more and more old-fashioned. "It has been diluted by time and distance." She thought.
eight
At the moment, Su Tian is walking alone in the street. The lively air didn't infect her at all.
After a few years, I went back to the original point.
On the contrary, she was not so wronged, because all the grievances were unclear and vague, and she found the pain point. So, she declined Lin Fei's polite retention and meaningless greetings, and resolutely embarked on a cold and lonely journey again.
Where should I go? She doesn't know either. Grievance has been gradually replaced by confusion, helplessness and despair. She just walked numbly, and the cold wind hit her, making her feel as if she had been slapped by reality.
The mobile phone rang again. But her hands are too stiff to open her handbag. The bell has ended, and her fingers are still stiff.
She saw Jiang Yichen's missed call.
He called again.
Su Tian only felt that all the bits and pieces of memory had become the carriers of pain, and all of them welled up in her mind. She couldn't bear it any longer and began to cry. Like a lost child, he saw his long-lost relatives.
Jiang Yichen asked no more. He was on the other end of the phone, quietly listening to his best friend crying from childhood, just like when he was a child. Finally, he only said one sentence: "It's not safe to be alone at night. Send me your location and I'll arrange accommodation for you. "
nine
As it was Christmas Eve, Jiang Yichen soon found a hotel. Su Tian silently accepted his timely help. She didn't know whether she would be so considerate under great grief, and whether it would be dangerous to continue walking at night in new york.
Su Tian sat in the hotel, staring blankly at the snowy Christmas Eve outside the window. She turned off the computer and mobile phone, cut off all contact with the outside world, and sat until dawn.
At noon the next day, she was ready to leave the room. When she pushed the door, she seemed to meet something foreign. Then, she heard Jiang Yichen's iconic roar (novel title: Crossing the Ocean to See You, Mo Xiaosang). From: read some stories every day and watch more exciting content)