My soul is purified in words.

Text | Chen Yezi

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This winter, the sun can't shine. It is either gloomy weather or cold winter rain, and then endless gloomy weather is wrapped in cold. Get up every morning, open the curtains and look at the sky outside. I always look forward to seeing the beautiful shadow of the sun and the sunshine coming in.

Walking on the way to work in the early morning of winter. The cool wind, even if there is only a trace, will get into the neck and be chilly. I lifted my collar, put my hand in my pocket and walked quickly forward. I think I am always alone in cold weather, and I think there is such a person I can care about. When I got to the office, I rummaged through the address book in my mobile phone, searched for Jingjing, edited a few words of concern and sent them out.

One day, we will all be old, the years will rush and our feelings will wear away. My friend can only give himself some spiritual comfort.

That night five years ago was a beautiful and quiet summer, and the stars were as cool as water. Jingjing and I met for the first time and walked on the forest path. The sound of insects is sparse, her long hair shawl covers her face, and her innocent eyes are lovely. Looking at her pure and beautiful figure, I am too deep to forget.

We walked side by side, looking at Jingjing, and I felt a good pleasure in my heart, and the five flavors rolled the ocean of inner waves. This is my first date with a girl. I didn't expect Jingjing to be so beautiful. The joy in my heart also plunged into my tender and thorough heart.

I was 25 years old and Jingjing was 22 years old. She just graduated from college. I have never been in contact with girls, but I am still very happy to meet such a beautiful nurse friend. I remember when I was in college, I was still very shy. Unexpectedly, I saw more girls around me with my eyes. Even if you meet a girl you like on the road, your face will turn red. Since we met Jingjing, our stories began to increase.

Jingjing said more than once that I was her best friend, and they were like girlfriends, so they could call her boyfriend's girlfriend. In fact, for many years, whether before or after her marriage, we have always been very close. She said that she knew many boys and would pursue her for a long time intentionally or unintentionally, but I wouldn't. This is a difficult question to answer. If I had chased Jingjing, our friendship would not have been maintained until now.

I am very close to her, but I have always maintained a better relationship than my friends and a lower relationship than my boyfriend and girlfriend. I think this is the most tacit understanding between Jingjing and me.

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When Jingjing and I first met, like most friends, we had a familiar process. At that time, she lived in the dormitory of the hospital. Whenever I wait for her downstairs, the moment I see her, her fashion breath is like a blooming flower, as if butterflies all over the world are spinning for her.

I really can't imagine what it's like to go out with her every time. Jingjing looked at me and smiled like a child. I was with Jingjing, and the laughter she left in my memory was much more impressive than others.

Jingjing likes shopping. As long as you go out with her, the whole street will leave her footprints. At that time, I was with her. Even though my feet were too painful to walk, I smiled and was very patient. Watching her smile, I will always indulge her.

Jingjing talked about her boyfriend a long time ago. Every time she mentioned her boyfriend, she always saw the happiness on her face and her eyes were full of love for her boyfriend. Once in a men's clothing store, she used me as a model, tried on all kinds of boys' clothes, picked out a suit and gave it to her boyfriend in person.

From then on, I gave up the idea of chasing her, and I was sure she wouldn't like me. Later, when I chased other girls, I often thought of Jingjing. If there is a girl who likes me as Jingjing likes her boyfriend, I will be very satisfied. It's a pity that I'm not as lucky as Jingjing's boyfriend.

At that time, I was in love with a girl, and Jingjing was full of her boyfriend, so I chased this girl well. Coincidentally, Jingjing happened to be in the same department as her. They usually go to work together, and Jingjing is also very enthusiastic, helping me pay attention to her dynamics.

Every time I see this girl, I always send her a bunch of flowers. She works the night shift, so I stay with her in the department. She was hungry, so I immediately went out to buy supper, but she was indifferent from beginning to end. The flowers were left in the nurse's station for many days, and when they were rotten, she left them alone. She didn't eat the KFC she sent in the evening, but Jingjing and her colleagues finally ate it.

Jingjing told me that she tried her best to help me, and that girl wouldn't like me. After that, I intermittently looked for opportunities to be nice to this girl and tried every means to ask her out. She never came out. After more than a year, I gave up completely.

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Many times, I try to become what the other person likes, but I can't make the other person accept more of myself. In order to get it, I stubbornly gave up a lot, so far I don't know if there is any return. This is what young people do. Jingjing always comforted me, and since then, we have trusted each other more.

Jingjing and I are getting closer and closer. In those years, we said everything, and two people were like blazing flames, which could not quench the enthusiasm of either side. She always tells stories about her college days. During that time, many boys chased her, so I naturally felt that she enjoyed the sweetness at that time. What impressed her the most was that a boy named striker chased her the most frequently.

Jingjing said that she was very upset. She didn't like any boys who chased her. It is best for her to go forward and stick to it. In order to look forward, she began to soften. Finally, one day after half a year, because of the boy's insistence, she was moved by her forward efforts and promised to be a forward girlfriend.

Obviously, beautiful girls are favored by most boys. Compared with other girls, in my eyes, Jingjing's beauty is quite admirable. I often say to Jingjing, "The loveliest thing about you is that people want to look back at you." Jingjing pouted and said, "No."

In fact, Jingjing likes a boy in her village best. Pity this forward, pay so much for Jingjing, but Jingjing likes tall and handsome boys. When the boy returned to Dongyang for the New Year to express his confession to Jingjing, Jingjing agreed without hesitation. Jingjing has been an ex-girlfriend for less than five days.

In this way, the progress was very unpleasant, and he could not understand how Jingjing could promise others when she clearly promised him. However, I still swear forward that no matter who Jingjing promises, he will always be good to Jingjing. Maybe this is youth. Being young is knowing what you can't do, or being silly and willing to do it.

Facts have proved that Jingjing only meets that boy once a year in other places, but she will never accept her kindness. At this point, I found that girls really don't need any reason to like a boy.

Once I went out for dinner with Jingjing and asked me to pay. Jingjing was very sorry to see the performance. She told him solemnly, "If you do this to me again, you will disappear next time." He said unyieldingly, "That man is far from home. It will be a year before we can meet again. "

"It's none of your business." Jingjing said and walked forward. I still don't want to go forward, so I have to rely on Jingjing. Jingjing told me that from then on, she and Qianjin were much less, and gradually they didn't contact each other. After graduating from college, I had no contact with forward until I got engaged.

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Thin light floats on the young girl's face, and layers of light are faintly and sporadically dotted with fine gauze, like a bright pearl; In the gap of blurred eyes, a faint fragrance glides, like a beautiful woman who just took a shower, looking shy and graceful. The breeze blew, sending wisps of fragrance, like pink in the distance. At this time, her face was slightly red, just like a song from a tall building in the distance, and her heart and heart suddenly trembled.

There is no more appropriate and vivid word to express the beauty of Jingjing. When I wrote this passage, I was still looking for my girlfriend's beautiful vision, but many times it backfired. Perhaps writers like to express beautiful things in words, which is the best sustenance.

Obviously, Jingjing is the girl I trust in my heart, and I pay for her with wishful thinking. Although I have been kind to her many times, it will always be a part of her life. Jingjing also said that I was so kind to her that her husband wouldn't do it. People are really strange. Jingjing knew that her husband had a lot of bad temper, so she liked him from the beginning and insisted on marrying him.

Looking at the photo of Jingjing's husband five years ago, I was really jealous. At that time, Jingjing's husband was full of amazing handsomeness. My cousin is eight years younger than me and is the most handsome of our cousins. He said more than once: "Now this era is the era of looking at the face value." Boys with high face value will wear and dress up, and will be loved by little girls.

Gradually, I really realized that every time I meet a girl, there is no reason at all. Tell her you don't like my type when you meet her. In fact, as long as the face value is said, it must be good-looking, and the face value is low, which is not in the eyes of others at all.

At that time, Jingjing was really an age to look at appearances, just like most girls in their twenties. Although Jingjing later found out that she was not as perfect as expected after marriage, and once wanted to find a rich man, she had to marry this tall and handsome boy in the same village at that time.

She once turned against her mother for this boy. Her mother is very opposed to Jingjing liking this boy. Because of this, her mother swore to Jingjing: "If you dare to resign from the hospital and marry him, I will sever the mother-daughter relationship with you."

Jingjing is a very strong and stubborn person. If her mother insists, she insists. You won't let me marry him, but I will. My boyfriend is still out of town, and he came back for Jingjing. Jingjing secretly resigned from the hospital. I was surprised at the time: "You are too courageous. Does your mother know? " She said, "My boyfriend is back. He will tell my mother. " Jingjing trusts her boyfriend very much.

Boyfriend lives up to Jingjing's expectations. On those occasions, my boyfriend went to Jingjing's house every day. As long as he has access to Jingjing's mother, he must convince her. Jingjing has a stubborn temper and insists on following this boy, and her mother is helpless. My boyfriend promised to be nice to Jingjing. Later, Jingjing said to me, "At that time, my boyfriend worked very hard and paid a lot for me."

Jingjing said, "I won't be born so early." I have to play for a few more years. " What my boyfriend says depends on me. "I know Jingjing was very sad at that time. She can't get her mother's support when she is with her boyfriend, and she can't get her mother's blessing when she goes abroad with her boyfriend.

Six months later, Jingjing called me from other places. She said she was pregnant. I smiled and said to myself that I would have a baby as soon as I followed. Listening to Jingjing's voice on the other end of the phone, I know that her boyfriend and his family are very kind to Jingjing. I admire her courage and determination at that time.

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It seems that a woman is born to take care of her family, perhaps because of the family environment, or because the man is destined for her. No matter who a woman marries, after having children, the man she marries will try to make him better anyway. For many years, nothing can torture you more than finding a good woman.

I still remember Jingjing said that she wouldn't have children so early, but when she went to other places with her boyfriend, she wouldn't let herself have them. I have been keeping in touch with Jingjing for a year. She will call me whenever anything happens, and I often chat with her when I am depressed. It's her first time in a foreign country, and her husband is always away from home, so she still feels a little wronged.

Because there is nowhere to go, she lies in bed early at night, waiting for her husband to come back, usually until eleven o'clock. Sometimes I can hear her anger on the phone. She talked about her husband several times, but her husband's temper just couldn't be changed.

Jingjing's complaint is obviously dissatisfaction with her husband's living habits. She said that two people still have to get along well. Later, she and her husband's family moved back to Dongyang. When talking to her about their relationship at that time, I asked her, "I think other men will give their wives romance and prepare flowers quietly after marriage." Will your husband? " She said, "Why is he so smart? If he knows these emotions. "

Jingjing looks innocent, but her big eyes are still so beautiful. No one knows how many things Jingjing has experienced. When she was abroad, Jingjing said that she had regrets. At that time, because of her willfulness, ten cows could not be pulled back, and she was very wronged and had to swallow her broken teeth.

However, Jingjing is very happy with her husband. No matter what Jingjing does, her husband always follows her. From Jingjing's love for her husband, at least I can feel that Jingjing is satisfied. My association with Jingjing can prove that her husband is very atmospheric. Unlike some married women in the past, her husband can't hide any men from women, even male colleagues and boyfriends. He has reached the point of being narrow-minded.

I can see that Jingjing's husband trusts her very much, which is one aspect of Jingjing's willingness to marry him. They are really suitable. ...

In fact, Jingjing is a little girl who loves to play. Her husband is totally dependent on her and dotes on her.

Therefore, Jingjing spends most of her time outside after work, but one thing is that she will definitely go home at night.

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Jingjing loves to play, but she is also a person who loves cleanliness and is good at housework. As long as you have time, you can keep your home tidy and orderly. Washing clothes is very diligent. She hates dirty clothes. The ground is dirty, and she doesn't like it. No matter how difficult things are outside, she should clean up the house and clean it up before going out.

Sometimes, I think it's good to have a woman at home. Women are better than men in taking care of their families. Shopping, taking care of children, decorating at home ... what men can't think of, women can think of.

From this point of view, I envy Jingjing's husband. It's a blessing to marry such a wife, and her wife is so beautiful. Jingjing herself said that her husband was lucky to get her, and friends around Jingjing also said that her husband was really lucky.

Now is an era of fighting for value. I have lost in face value, and the girl I like doesn't like me. In fact, like most men, I also have their advantages. All men chase girls the same, but they promised others, but they didn't promise me.

Jingjing often says to me, "You will have it, too. It's cruel to run after me like before. If you chase hard, girls will be soft-hearted. " I shrugged and said, "But you didn't promise to go forward for a few days." Jingjing smiled at me and was speechless.

Over the years, I am finally much better than when I was in my twenties. At that time, when you meet a girl, you won't have a second face. No matter how much I chase her, she just doesn't like it. I know girls now, there are girls who can contact me, and finally I have the experience of contacting girls.

Jingjing is my best friend. She understands my situation very well. We love each other. Jingjing said that if she had to choose again, she would choose someone with a better family, at least without worrying about life. Looking for a man who wants to live, looks are not important. Family conditions can be better, and men have the ability. I can feel her mature.

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Now that you are married to this man, you must make him better. If he gets better, you will get better yourself. In the first year after returning from other places, Jingjing started her married family life in the countryside with her children. However, life is not as easy as she imagined.

At Jingjing's suggestion, my husband went to work in her father-in-law's factory, and Jingjing came out to work at my suggestion. After all, women should have their own independent financial resources at any time. The establishment of the hospital is gone, so we have to find a suitable job.

To start over, Jingjing first chose to study computer sculpture. Every time she sees me, she always says that she can make a lot of money by opening a factory after learning computer carving, and many industries need computer carving. The idea was a little simple, but Jingjing was not afraid of hard work at that time. At first, she was an apprentice and rode her little donkey to town every day. When Xingyue came home during the day, she rode on a dark country road again.

Later, when I drove her back to her hometown, I passed this road and looked at the roadside, leaning against so many cemeteries. I glanced at her and said, "Do you dare to ride a bike like this at night?" She said with a sly expression, "I'm used to it, don't you think?" Suddenly, I sincerely admire her courage and her stubbornness.

Soon, life changed. Maybe it's the mother. It hurts to see my daughter working so hard, and I don't want her to be wronged again. Mother prevented Jingjing from living such a life.

For a while, Jingjing was also very confused and didn't know what to do with her life.

That year, Jingjing just came back from other places. Besides being with her husband, her friends often contact me. She never hides her inner fragility in front of me. Jingjing's petite appearance will make people feel very intimate. Her big eyes are particularly vivid, and her coquetry language is particularly pitiful. She said, "Only her husband is dependent."

A girl like Jingjing really can't bear to let her suffer. I said, why don't you go back to being a nurse? Unexpectedly, she really went back to be a nurse. Coincidentally, people can see beautiful scenery on any road when crossing the border. After Jingjing went to a private hospital for half a year, the personnel director of the former hospital found her and asked her to go back to work.

Jingjing, after all, has nursing experience. It is not a problem to go back to the original hospital, but the previous career establishment is gone. However, these do not affect Jingjing's working attitude. What nurses need is a sense of responsibility. After having a family, Jingjing's mentality is more mature.

Jingjing decided to go back to the original hospital and it was smooth sailing. She works very hard and never slacks off. Jingjing's dream is to be a princess, expecting her husband to get better and better and realize her dream. Although their family is rented in the city, she has never forgotten the present situation of her family. She hopes that this family will get better and better.

Jingjing's work in the original hospital is also very stable. From work to home, everything in Jingjing's plan is going on in an orderly way. However, what Jingjing lacks most is money. The home decoration cost her husband a lot of savings. Her salary in the hospital is not perfunctory, and she is still in debt. This is enough to make her very nervous about using money. For a time, Jingjing had to find some part-time jobs to make up for other expenses.

The "hardship" in life has also changed Jingjing's image as a simple little girl. In the knowledge of life, perhaps the only comfort is that everyone is growing.

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Jingjing has never been a lonely person. I still clearly remember the year Jingjing just came back from other places, and she was uneasy about the status quo. During that time, she ran around, Jingjing said, and often went to the city. I don't quite know what to do.

Many times, I know Jingjing is in town. She knows that I usually have time on weekends, and the time to find me is mostly on weekends. I know that most of the time, she travels back and forth between the city and the countryside alone. On the one hand, she works, and on the other hand, she does it for this family. I was particularly impressed once. She returned to her hometown very late that day. It was that day that she took my car and I walked over to take her home.

Young and vigorous, people are always so young and passionate when they recall those lush years, no matter how late at night or how late they drive. At that time, I was Jingjing's most contacted person and her longest male friend.

From then on, Jingjing and I really became good friends who cared about each other, and so did our confidante. Jingjing and I are congenial, and bit by bit, the stories I experienced with her are all integrated.

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Jingjing Do not forget your initiative mind still thinks about her family and her husband. When I first returned to work in the hospital, Jingjing and her husband, a city and a country, often felt lonely. One day, she asked me, "What can a low degree like my husband do?" I am really speechless. In order to be with her husband, Jingjing helped her husband find a suitable job.

In my impression, after a woman marries someone, she thinks about her family and her husband everywhere. Every time I am with Jingjing, I always look envious of her husband. Thinking of my own experience, after all these years of hard work, girls still have no feelings for me. I'm not their type … I'm getting bored.

Jingjing's husband's work has also fallen behind. They also settled down a little, took their children to the city and started their own lives.

I will never forget the scene when Jingjing helped her find a house before and after going back to work in the hospital. My deep friendship with her is still vivid. Baiyun and Canggou, only this little poor memory left by me, carefully store the good times I spent with Jingjing.

Jingjing and I are looking for information about renting houses in the street. The car took her around, and all the streets and alleys left our footprints. My friendship of "comrades plus brothers" can only be a gang to the end. At that time, Jingjing's husband was still in the country, and he would come to look for housing information.

At that time, Jingjing became the most experienced person looking for a house. Call the landlord to discuss the price, as long as it is lip service. At that time, we had both ups and downs. When we are tired, we lean against each other in the car. If you are hungry, just find a roadside stall to eat, and never care about the price. It was our best time.

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Today, Jingjing's family has lived in a talented apartment and a large suite allocated by the hospital, and their living conditions are many times higher than those of the house they rented before. This is the best treatment I have ever seen in all hospitals in Dongyang. Such a high-rise residential area makes people like living here at first sight.

Jingjing said: "My biggest wish now is to save money to buy a house of my own." I have confidence in Jingjing's efforts. Jingjing has never forgotten her princess dream. When I was having dinner with Jingjing, she said with emotion, "My princess dream is that someone can love me and spoil me."

I don't think any man can stand her wayward temper, but her husband can. In fact, as a woman, Jingjing said this from the heart. This is a girl's dream. No matter how old she is, whether she is a mother or not, her unique princess feelings remain unchanged. I like Jingjing's simple appearance.

Jingjing's evaluation of her husband is half and half. She is very dependent on her husband. No matter how she lost her temper and played outside, her husband spoiled her from beginning to end. Jingjing said that these are all used by her husband. She said this sentence word for word, and her face was filled with happiness.

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Jingjing and I have always maintained the closest relationship. Year after year, I am still looking for my girlfriend. She leads a dull and warm life. Jingjing took her son who grew up slowly, enjoying the happiness of being a mother, dressing him up very handsomely and cultivating him in various ways.

Jingjing didn't marry a local tyrant like her cousin. However, Jingjing's "own" life is not so easy to be calm in the impetuous life circle. Jingjing's experience along the way is not magnificent, but her life is also colorful.

Jingjing is obviously not the kind of person who competes for fame and fortune. She is just a little girl. Even if there are unpleasant episodes in her life, it is understandable. Beautiful people will be disturbed before and after marriage. Jingjing's choice is often avoidance. Sweet-looking Jingjing, small and exquisite. If you don't say it, you really can't see that she is already a mother.

She really hasn't grown up. Little girls' dreams are always somewhat divorced from reality. Jingjing has always wanted to meet a man who can be kind to her except her husband, and she doesn't want men to chase her, so she enjoys everything that men can give her.

I think, life is not always as passionate as falling in love, although it has not reached the ideal height on some levels. In such a specific era, society has promoted the status of women too much. In this age of looking at faces, many boys also give girls a lot of love. Did this woman think about it, and the result was completely different.

As Jingjing's good friend, it is not easy for me to find someone. From Jingjing's point of view, there are many girls around her who are liked by boys. Good-looking girls can always be favored by boys, and girls can always choose a boy who is satisfied with them. This is the charm of girls, even after marriage.

Looking for someone again and again, I thought Jingjing was so beautiful that she was welcomed by many boys after marriage. There is always some imbalance in my heart, and then I often avoid her intentionally or unintentionally. But it didn't affect our relationship. Jingjing often tells me that she always feels that other boys are good to her for a purpose, while I am good to her for no purpose.

Because I didn't have any purpose in Jingjing, I got nothing. I once had a conflict with Jingjing. For a person who wants to settle down too much when looking for a girlfriend, it is always a torment to be so kind to female friends instead of chasing meaningful people.

30 years old, watching friends get married one by one, I heard that some friends celebrated the birth of their children. My time is precious like running water, and I am very sad. During that time, I haven't contacted Jingjing for a long time. I think she and her husband should always be with her.

Jingjing soon noticed my idea, and then she always avoided giving me too much excitement. Once we walked into a coffee shop and she insisted on paying. She said, "We are good friends and I am very casual." I was moved by her understanding of me. I am still very kind to Jingjing, and I am glad that Jingjing always regards me as her best friend.

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I watched the edited information sent to Jingjing. Soon, there was a crisp three-ring tone on the mobile phone, and the short message read: "It's cold, pay attention to your health." I feel the temperature of Jingjing's reply to my information, and I have a strong desire to find my own happiness as soon as possible. Jingjing is still my best friend here.

Jingjing's story is that I recorded the purest friendship between men and women along the way with her.

Jingjing's story is the beginning of my dream of meeting a good girl.

My story with Jingjing continues. ...