No one can drag you to heaven with one hand, and no one can trample you to hell with one foot. The so-called bitterness and joy in fate are just inner feelings. When you surpass yourself and are narrow and selfish, you will feel that heaven is everywhere; When you are entangled in troubles, there is hell everywhere. Therefore, everything is idealistic, and life is made by ourselves. Fate depends on how hard you work and how you look at it. Destiny is in your hands, in your heart.
-One-day Zen theory
With the departure of the recruitment, my mood began to be agitated and I felt that fate always played tricks on me. But I still believe that things will turn around one day, telling myself to use static braking.
Sure enough, it wasn't long before Mr. Yuan Wanzhu informed me to study in Fujiang Normal School in Gaoxian County, Yibin for three months, that is, to read a few books and then become a full-time teacher. At that time, the education front was very short of talents, and the Cultural Revolution School did not enroll students for ten years. To restore education, teachers are needed, and the only way is to train a group of students quickly to solve the urgent need.
Times rewrite history, history makes people, and an era has its own characteristics, forcing me to change my thinking and practice, although I couldn't see the policy clearly at that time. Now it seems really necessary. Without that short training, my fate might be different.
For this study, no matter how long it is, as long as you can learn knowledge, I didn't expect to get money for reading. People at that time were so simple, pure and simple.
Plus, I like reading, and I'm really happy to sweep away the gloom in recruitment, so I'm happy to pack my bags and go on the road. I was very excited and excited all the way. After all, being a teacher for three months is the most beautiful career in the sun.
At the same time, I also feel that the water quality is too poor. It's really a bit timid for a primary school graduate to be a teacher. If he doesn't work hard, he can't do the job. I'm sorry for the people and the party. With this idea, entering this team, modesty and eagerness to learn have become the primary mental preparation.
Teacher Yuan also warned me, "The first thing is to educate people, to become adults first, and then to become talents. You are a teacher, answer questions, and you are a teacher. "
At that time, this profession was respected and admired by people. Teachers and students in the school all said, "If you want to grasp students spiritually, you must learn more knowledge and be knowledgeable before you can convince students." Everyone is determined to make a name for themselves academically and contribute more knowledge and talents to mountain education.
When a person realizes the preciousness of what he has lost, he will get it back twice as much. Fujiang Normal School has learned more things in three months than in three years, especially a qualitative leap in thinking.
Before the reform, Fujiang was rustic, with ancient buildings and rivers, and the memories of several streets were blurred. The school is on the side of the road, and the gate is very distinctive. It was a memorial archway in the Republic of China. Next to the two gates, there are two white walls, which are recessed at 45 degrees. Above the gate, there is a triangular structure. Two stone steps go up into the gate, and on the right is our dormitory. There are dozens of big houses, opposite the big playground, next to the playground is the teaching building, and on the left is the teacher dormitory. We often go out through the back door and take a walk in that street. There are old-fashioned houses on both sides of the street, and the business is very inconspicuous, not as prosperous as it is now. In recent decades, my memory is vague. Fortunately, there is also a reference to the school rules drawn by Teacher Pan.
I became good friends with Mr. Pan, an art teacher, Mr. Pan, a math teacher and a Chinese teacher, and we "played" together when we were free.
Teacher Pan is high flyers from the Fine Arts Department of Southwest Normal University. This watercolor painting is great. When we are free, we will go to the river to sketch, because water is convenient. Watercolor painting first wets the paper with water and then paints it. Wet painting is natural and smooth, giving people room for imagination. In just a few days, gouache watercolor painting, I was fascinated.
On that occasion, he asked me to go and said that he would go to the brick factory, but he didn't explain it to me. I told the teacher that he had his secrets. I called another classmate and it took a long time to arrive. He didn't tell us the purpose: it was to teach us clay sculpture, first to teach us to use bamboo as a cutting tool, and several bamboo knives, one of which I still have. A sharp knife at one end and a flat knife at the other end, because bamboo is easy to process.
He caught a lot of mud for making tiles, which was sticky and easy to shape. From the beginning, he created busts of each other. Under his guidance, I shaped my head, and he praised me, just like me. Then he took a photo of my molded head and washed it as a souvenir.
Three months before graduation, he drew me a watercolor book as a souvenir. After 50 years, I still cherish it. I miss the intimate teacher-student relationship every time I see it.
I went to Fujian to see him last year, and he has left Fujian Normal University to go home for the elderly. The math teacher Li is in good health. After retirement, he left Fujiang, Gao County, Yibin, and returned to his hometown Naxi. He finally found his phone number and couldn't wait to call him. I heard the news before I saw anyone. Loud voice, clear mind, or that cheerful statement.
He likes music very much. When I first went to his dormitory, there was a kitchen in two small rooms. A room has a bed and a big bookcase, and it is also a bedroom and study. The outside room is used for eating and playing dulcimer. There are some musical instruments on the table on the wall.
The first time I went, I was immediately fascinated by the sound of his playing dulcimer, which seemed to be a "golden bottle-like mountain", and then he taught me some basic skills. Since then, I have often played dulcimer, and there is also a female educated youth in Yibin who likes to play dulcimer there. Sometimes the three of us will go for a walk in the street by the river. The beautiful experience of youth cannot be erased from our dreams. When we talk about being educated youth, the distance between people is close and short.
Yibin female educated youth, can't remember her name, is almost as tall as me, not as thin, quiet, less language and shy as me. But I like music as much as I do. The back row of our classroom is full of pedal organs, so we practice when no one is around anyway.
When we have time, we often go out for a walk and talk about our ideas with each other, except love. Just after the Cultural Revolution, I think love is something that cannot be expressed and belongs to capitalism. That kind of inexplicable men and women are afraid to say things like love when they walk together. I just think the other person is good and always ask for a walk. I think a walk between men and women is love. What a woman thinks can only be guessed. In fact, men don't know anything, or they may be too young.
I have strong hands-on ability. If it's not correct or pronounced, I'll fix it. This craft is self-taught. Later, I returned to the city and repaired many kindergartens.
There is a band in the school, but there is a lack of bass, so I made a bass diaphragm for the school, stretching it with a small bucket and the broken drum of the school without snakeskin. The thread on the tap pole is a beef tendon string bought in the store. Miss Li also praised me for doing well. The bass is deep and deep, and the effect is good.
You have what you are, and the circle is very important. I followed the right teacher, friend. Modest study, combined with hard work, makes continuous progress. Chinese is a textbook used by middle school teachers, starting with pinyin, rhetoric, text structure, classical Chinese and composition, and there are two books on Chinese mathematics. I also bought a lot of books. Miss Li and they gave me a lot. Three months is a short time, but it has made great progress.
I realized that as long as people are sensible, the motivation for learning is immeasurable, which may be the potential that people often say. In the future, in teaching, try to inspire students to be sensible at an early stage, develop their potential and stimulate the power of conscious learning.
Fu Jiang's experience has passed for decades. The changes in decades have been so great that I can't recognize them. Fujiang Normal School was later changed to a secondary vocational school, which no longer exists. Those old houses have been demolished and replaced by modern high-rise buildings, wide streets and tree-lined sidewalks. The former Fujiang Town is now the seat of the party and government in Gaoxian County.
On the contrary, the original position of Gaoxian County Committee has been dilapidated, and these places have changed a lot, attracting countless sighs. The hotel opposite the county party Committee where we are resident, we don't know when it was razed to the ground, and we can't find any traces of memories of that year.
The dreamlike sigh of life and the passionate memories of youth merged into a wordless song, which was sung in the former valleys and towns. When people are old, time never returns, and they can't escape from the young people here, thinking of each other endlessly. That was our past.